The Synthesis of Light Symbol
The Energy Enhancement Meditation
Course APPRENTICE LEVEL Two
AND THE ENERGY ENHANCEMENT SEVEN STEP PROCESS
The KARMA CLEARING
PROCESS - Mastery of Protection and the
Mastery of Thoughtforms. The mastery of Blockages between the Base and Crown Chakras. The
Mastery of the creation and dissolution of Blockages and Thoughtforms through
the Advanced techniques of Taoism, Buddhist Meta, the Western Mystery Tradition
and Merlin. The Jedi Knights. The White Magicians.
There
are Four APPRENTICE LEVELs of Energy Enhancement Teaching,
each APPRENTICE LEVEL is a Meditation Course having Seven Meditational Initiations which can be taken in a
Week-Long Course.
Also one
REIKI Initiation is AVAILABLE with each APPRENTICE LEVEL. You can become a Reiki Master with Energy
Enhancement Meditation.
Each
APPRENTICE LEVEL
is entirely independent of the others and complete in itself. You do not have to take
every APPRENTICE LEVEL, but the APPRENTICE LEVELs must be taken in the order of One, Two, Three and
Four.
HONEY KALARIA
SAYS
I was told that each of our 7
chakras
within our bodies
should be seen as a separate mind/brain
like one of the
processors
in a
parallel processing computer. All the
Super Computers
these days are parallel processing computers.
We use only 1 brain or processor
and the idea is to
activate the other 6 brains or processors
to build your creativity, intellect, wisdom and
genius abilities. This would lead you to become happier and healthier, enjoy
being a more
emotionally and mentally
balanced person and become a more
blockage free
(free of
negative emotions) human being. The idea is to have a purpose
in life to make this world a better, more
peaceful and spiritual
place, starting from working on yourself as mentioned before.
As I realized how wonderful and life transforming this course
is, I got inspired to make this course available to others.
Both
Satchiji and Devi
are beautiful and
inspiring
souls, passionately committed to helping people grow spiritually and
accelerating each
students
progress towards enlightenment. They allow the
students to
grow
at their own pace, whilst passing on
profound knowledge
and
techniques in a
light hearted and joyful
manner. Both of them have extensive
knowledge, possess strong perceptive powers and bathe people around them in the
strong
Buddhafield
of energy that surrounds them. They have both made my stay
in Argentina
in Jan 2005
a
delightful and a memorable one.
Honey
Kalaria, Diva, Choreographer, Bollywood Film Star.
Honey Kalaria
Full MEDITATION Testimonial Click Here!
THE PAINLESS
REMOVAL OF STRESS, TRAUMA AND NEGATIVE EMOTION
Energy
Enhancement easily transmutes all negative energy without going anywhere near
the emotions and memory!! The techniques of Energy Enhancement show you how to
QUICKLY AND EASILY TRANSMUTE YOUR STRESS because it works at the level of Energy
which underlies AND IS THE BASIS of all problems.
THE START OF
THE ENERGY ENHANCEMENT ENERGIES
The
Buddhafield of energy, in which evolutionary progress can quickly be made, and
Kundalini Energy are absolutely necessary to any course of Meditation.
Energy
Enhancement Advanced Techniques allow PAINLESS progress above and beyond any
other course.
Energy
Enhancement Advanced Techniques only use ENERGY which underlies all other human
functions.
With Energy
Enhancement it is not necessary to go anywhere near painful memory,
negative emotions and catharsis which are the foundations of other courses.
ENERGY
ENHANCEMENT PAINLESS TRANSMUTATION IS EASY AND QUICK.
IT SPEEDS UP
THE PROCESS OF ENLIGHTENMENT!!
It teaches
TOTAL Transformation and Transmutation
THE PRINCESS
OF SWORDS OF THE THOTH TAROT
The inflow
of Spiritual Energy or Kundalini Energy is well known in all Spiritual Circles
as being expected in all genuine Courses with teachers who have advanced
experience with Enlightened Masters yet some people just cannot get their heads
around it and they do not trust it as this concept destroys their idea of a
"Normal" world. They start to fear the unknown!!
"EASY AND
SMOOTH ENERGY ENHANCEMENT SPEEDS UP THE PROCESS OF ENLIGHTENMENT"
Energy Enhancement easily transmutes all negative energy without going anywhere
near the emotions and memory!!
The wind of Kundalini
blowing through you usually leaves smoke and ashes in its wake. Normally, when Kundalini energy
starts to flow through the interiorly held negativities it starts to destroy and
release the pain and trauma within. Fear CAN be the result with all OTHER
courses.
The techniques of Energy
Enhancement show you how to TOTALLY CLEAR yourself from moods and disturbing
thoughts
because it works at the level
of Energy which underlies all the problems.
"ENERGY
ENHANCEMENT IS A PROBLEM FREE METHOD OF AWAKENING CREATIVE INTELLIGENCE!!"
The powerful
techniques of Energy Enhancement
REMOVE
the traumatic nature of all this Energy Release by using the new
ALCHEMICAL concept of
"Transmutation"
-
there remains non of the problems associated with all other courses.
Energy
Enhancement does not work at the level of memory.
You do not have to remember anything as we work at the level of energy which
underlies all of the painful memories, yet the performance of Energy Enhancement
techniques can easily
and totally
remove all the ENERGY BLOCKAGES, in a non-painful way!!
The student
of Energy Enhancement knows how necessary is the transmutation of all the old
energies on the path of
evolution, progress and inner freedom.
The Energy transmutation of
Energy Enhancement
produces inner peace, clarity, openness and truth.
The Energy Enhancement student's "NO" to all the past negative energy held
inside springs from an
unequivocal "YES" to themselves and to their life!
The
necessity for positive and easy change is comparable
to the drastic move by
Jesus Christ when he drove the moneylenders out of the Temple,
and to the work of
Hercules when he drove the River Styx through the Augean Stables, thus
easily cleaning out thousands
of years of horse shit in one day!
THE RESULT
OF THE ENERGY ENHANCEMENT ENERGIES
THE PRINCESS
OF DISCS OF THE THOTH TAROT
The wand of
the Princess of discs stretches from heaven to earth and symbolises the
Antakarana, an ancient symbol of Kundalini Yoga, which represents the tower,
rainbow bridge of energy which flows through all your chakras from heaven to
earth, when all energy blockages preventing that flow have been transmuted
through the techniques of Energy Enhancement.
By
learning how to bring the Spiritual Energies of the Center of the Universe,
the highest and purest
form of light, into
this Earth which is the darkest and most negative of all elements, it becomes
possible to raise the energy level of the Energy Enhancement student and the
Earth itself. This
advance into new territory has the ability to unify to integrate the mother, the
father and all the internal children into one energetic, soul infused and
peaceful being.
"THERE CAN
ONLY BE ONE!!"
Thus
bringing together spirit and matter. The removal of energy blockages has created
something new which can channel the light onto the Earth and
cosmic idea-impulses,
thoughtforms, become visible to everyone and permeate everything with their
divine quality.
THE TRUE
HEALING OF YOU, AND THE EARTH ITSELF!!
Here's
another testimonial,....
Thomas Kline
Hello!
My name is Thomas Kline and I am 21 years of age. For 8 years now I have been
studying a “Collective Martial Art” consisting of mostly Hung Gar Kung Fu
and Ninjitsu under my very experienced and excellent teacher Bill Bruley who is
a 5th degree black belt in his art.
I am
now at my 3rd degree black belt, and I knew that I needed to add on to my art,
looking mainly towards the Spiritual aspect.
When I first arrived in L’Escala in Spain, from America, I didn’t really know
what to expect, except for what I had read about on their website. I must
say I really got what I had bargained for!
I had tried
practicing meditation and yoga here and there before, but never knew what was
really out there to experience.
After
learning just the first stage of Energy Enhancement, I immediately felt the
energy rushing through me!
It truly was
quite an experience! I could’ve spent months upon months to get to where
I am after only 1 week with Satchi and Devi!
The feeling
of bringing up blockages and grounding them was another life changing experience
I had out here!
I never knew
that the pains that I was physically and emotionally feeling were caused by
these energies (blockages) keeping me from being just who I’m made to be!
My blockages were mainly around the 2nd and 5th chakras. When they were
removed one by one, I could sense that I felt more at ease and pains were
actually going away revealing more and more blockages to be sorted out!
Also, being
initiated into Reiki 1 by Devi and learning her unique exercises really helped
in the process of bringing up blockages and removing them!
During one
of my meditations, I really could feel that I was completely in line with the
energies of the universe, which gave me such a feeling of ecstasy! Then I
knew that I could never turn back on my practices! I am definitely going
to stick with the techniques I have learned out here!
There really
are no words I could use to make you completely understand what I experienced,
except that you should come and find out for yourselves what it’s like to
learn how to completely better yourself and the world around you!
I hope my words could at least inspire one of you to take the first step in
Energy Enhancement by coming out to stay with Satchi and Devi and learning
something you can take with you FOREVER!! Wishing you ALL the best
in life,
Tommy
From the Energy Enhancement Meditation Course 2003
THE KARMA
CLEARING PROCESS
ENERGY ENHANCEMENT
SATCHIDANAND SAYS..
DA VINCI "DO NOT LOOK UPON MY
FINGER, INSTEAD, LOOK TOWARDS THE SOUL TO WHICH IT POINTS..."
The Karma Clearing
Process begins with the removal of all Energy Blockages from the energetic
system of a human being. Wilhelm Reich called it the Emotional Armor. These are
the little stiffnesses which cause us so much pain in massage. Energy Blockages
exist in the mental, emotional and physical bodies... Even in the spiritual
bodies.
Energy Blockages
split us so as we remove them through advanced and effective meditation
techniques so we become more integrated, more solid.
Removing energy
blockages from our spiritual bodies will allow us to access our hearts and our
conscience, it will allow us to access our soul, our soul path in life, without
which life has no meaning.
Removing energy
blockages from the mind, the mental body, allows more energy to flow, we become
more brilliant. Our minds become clear, our IQ increases and more.. We obtain
the power of persistence which enables us to accomplish anything!
Removing energy
blockages from the emotions allows more energy to flow, we become more stable.
Our emotions become clear, our emotional IQ increases and more.. We obtain the
power of having only positive emotions which enables us to radiate love, the
energy of change and to access the will!
Removing energy
blockages from the body allows more energy to flow, we become more energetic.
Our bodies become clear of disease and pain, our energy increases and more.. We
obtain the power of flexibility and strength which enables us to live longer and
with more pleasure, more quality of life!
And what is that uneasiness within?
Just what is that tension which we find inside?
It is pure spiritual energy which has somehow become perverted by painful
traumatic experience. It is energy which has been transmuted by some painful experience
into pain, that encapsulated pain which we hold inside us or absorb from people
and places on this planet. It is energy blockages which makes us feel uneasy
and tense.
All the pain caused negative energy blockages which we hold inside are called
the selfish competitive ego.
And because we all have been painfully perverting this pure spiritual energy into
encapsulated negative energy or energy blockages for thousands of years, this world is filled with that perverted
negative energy as energy blockages which we absorb from everything around us.
It is that pain and tension inside, those energy blockages which causes us to do all the bad things in
this world.
It is that pain and tension inside, those energy blockages which causes all the bad things in
this world to happen to us, we call the bad things to us. We are accidents
waiting to happen. This is karma.
Body stiffness, niggles and pain cause Illness and disease.
Negative emotions,
mood swings, wrong thinking, jealousy, prejudice, hatred, anger, fear are all
caused perverted spiritual energy encapsulated as energy blockages.
Splitnesses in the
mind, blocked minds, unclear and plain wrong thinking. Mind solutions caused by
selfishly wanting to gain something to the detriment of someone else. If we have a lot of these
negative energy blockages within ourselves it will cause us to give up easily, a
lack of energy, a lack of goodness and heart and soul. The "Mind filled manacles
of fear" as said Blake.
It will cause us to
lose our trust and our faith in the essential goodness of people and our teachers. We will project
all our negativity onto them and begin to see them through the dark glasses of
our negative experiences. Through the darkness of the negative energy which we
hold inside.
We create this negative energy inside. And as we evolve we gain the ability to
absorb more of this negativity from the people around us and from our surroundings.
We gain the power to hold on to more of this negativity without being affected
by it. However, the straw that broke the camels back always comes. At this point
we become open to wanting to know how to remove and transmute energy blockages.
How to change negative energy into pure positive spiritual energy again.
When we enter into the Buddhafield
of Energy which surrounds the enlightened we start to lose this Negative energy
from inside us.
Because an enlightened master has the ability radiate pure positive spiritual
energy as well as to absorb and transmute this
negative energy back into pure spiritual energy. And a
spiral of transmutation, a column of pure transmutation, the
Buddhafield, surrounds him
and enters into his surroundings.
As you people upon the verge of enlightenment walk around, as well as creating
your own negative energy, you absorb likewise the negative energies of people
and places. The symptoms of this are your illnesses, your negative emotions of
anger and fear, your mood swings and your feelings of negativity.
The only difference between you people on the verge of enlightenment and a
master is that a master knows how to transmute the energy he absorbs. And thus
he is surrounded by peace and harmony instead of more and more pain and
negativity..
He does not curse the
darkness. Instead he lights a candle.
The only difference between you and a master is that a master knows how to teach
you how to transmute this negative energy into harmonious spiritual energy, and
thus place you on the path of peace and harmony, the path of enlightenment
itself.
He only needs to teach you how to look at the negative energy. He only needs to
teach you how to see it and deal with it. Because anything else is painful. And
will cause you to do more painful things. Because this negative energy is Karma
itself.
THUS THE KARMA CLEARING PROCESS OF ENERGY ENHANCEMENT, THE SOURCE OF ALL
TRUE FORGIVENESS.
And all spiritual masters are not affected by Karma and indeed have no Karma. Because they have the
psychic ability to transmute all karma into pure spiritual energy. And this pure
spiritual energy builds up in them and is added to by their masters when they
die. So that they are rich because they have a large bank balance of Pure
positive spiritual energy to spend on their students.
Because the first stage is the access to purity by transmuting all the pain,
which travels with us from lifetime to lifetime and grows more and more each
lifetime because like calls to like, inside. To he that has, more will be given,
said the Christ.
So we need to learn how to go against this law of the gaining of karma and
negative energy and energy blockages by understanding and using the grounding of negative energies, the Third
Initiation of Energy Enhancement.
And then the second part comes. Once we have transmuted this negativity inside
to a certain degree, it then becomes possible to absorb more positive spiritual
energy from the masters bank balance.
The Master can send it to you with a glance. We absorb energy from the Master.
The Hindus call it the Uppadesa or the Initiation of the Master, and it is said
to come by glance, by touch, or in silence.
Until we learn how to do it for ourselves from the Universe.
And once you start transmuting negative energy by using the techniques of Energy
Enhancement every day. Once you start to access your inner purity… To he that
has not, it will all be taken away, said the Christ. Yes, all the negativity
will be taken away.
And this is the Real Initiation or in the Zen Phrase, Satori. And after many
Satoris, you then eventually become in the Hindu Phrase, Twice Born, in the Sufi
Phrase, a Made Man, You have made your Bones.
PEACEFUL.
HARMONIOUS.
ENLIGHTENED.
All with a glance.
All with learning how to open our eyes.
All with the gaining of Psychic Vision.
All with Energy Enhancement.
In 28 Initiations
We search for those of you on the verge of Enlightenment to Brave the Course of
Energy Enhancement. You know who you are because already you are going through
the processes described above.
You are the people who have no other choice but to absorb negativity and die, or
learn how to transmute it and learn how to Live. Because this knowledge is more
important than life and death. It is for those of you who want to attain a Soul.
Love and Light,
SATCHIDANAND
I have been working for over 12 years with many well
known techniques including Transcendental meditation and Kriya Yoga, Subud,
A Course in Mircles and the Sedona Method.
Although I have made good progress with these techniques
I now consider these to have been preliminary techniques to prepare me for
Energy Enhancement.
These methods that I have tried before simply don’t
provide for the systematic identification of Energy Blockages or contain the
Advanced Techniques for the removal of the energy blockages to
enlightenment that Energy Enhancement does.
If you are serious about self-improvement, growth,
change, enlightenment! Then the Energy Enhancement course is for you.
If you are tired of all the many systems of meditation
which leave questions unanswered and where the path to enlightenment is ill
defined and uncertain then don’t delay end the suffering as soon as possible
– learn Energy Enhancement.
Jean, FROM THE SEPTEMBER 2005 ENERGY ENHANCEMENT COURSE
This Second
APPRENTICE LEVEL
of Meditation Energy Enhancement starts to put it all together. The gradual, safe advance in Energy continues, bringing with it a
new responsibility.
This
powerful Initiation of Meditation Energy Enhancement completes the purification process,
showing that in the end there is no
difference between your energy of purification and the purification of every thing around
you.
There is no
difference.
As your energy is
raised so the energy of the whole world and everything in it is raised. We learn that we
affect everything and everyone around us. Our Initiation brings about the Evolution of the whole planet and
every Group and Person in it.
You can make a
difference!
Learn the
higher levels of healing beyond Reiki. How to de-power Blockages and to calm them so that their Energy can
be sent on more easily. Also how to develop the strength to do this with Excellence.
This
Initiation of Energy
Enhancement also completes the Teaching on how to prevent a fall,
which can happen now or at any time, with or without the Energy
Enhancement teachings.
Thus, Energy
Enhancement completes the teaching on one of the most powerful methods of protection
known.:-
As you get brighter and your
Heart opens so you can attract the attention of people who want to steal your energy.
To pervert your evolution by wanting to teach you methods of getting what you want,
selfishness and the misuse of power, the opposite of the Open Heart.
Those on the selfish
left-hand path will never teach you the way of fully opening the Heart or the Crown chakra.
Since those on the left-hand path can never
exist in the full presence of the Heart or the Soul, this is one method of telling black
from white MAGICIANS.
Also, as Earl Spencer said about Princess
Diana "Those who are truly good are threatening to those at the opposite end of the
moral spectrum." You can expect AS YOU EVOLVE, as Don Juan said in the book by Carlos Castaneda,
"the most perfect enemies."
Inner strength is
found, given and created. As Baudelaire said- "That which does not kill me makes me
strong." The method of use of the vibration of Soul Energy and of the Monad
and of the Logos, taught
in Energy Enhancement, can be higher than that used by those on the left-hand path,
usually the level of the mind. So gradually one is taken higher and higher.
It is said
that a Human picks up Blockages and implant sub-personalities like a dog picks
up Fleas!!
APPRENTICE
LEVEL two of Energy Enhancement, built upon the firm foundation of the other
Initiations is a powerful system of protection from Blockages and Blockage
implant
absorbtion, in dealing with all methods of attack,
through using the healing energy of the
Soul.
These negative energies can affect us even now,
with or without the teachings of Energy Enhancement.
With these
highly advanced techniques you also have the opportunity of freeing yourself
from negative Blockages and implants in our Auras.
These
thoughtforms which can lead to Energy Blockages which cause mood swings,
negativity, cynicism and the downward spiral to depression and physical disease,
as well as the positive thoughtforms of psychic powers.
Acupuncture
has been used successfully for 4000 years!!, All disease is caused by Energetic
Blockages in the body. Acupuncturists cure people by removing these blockages by
sticking needles into minor chakras, acupuncture points, on the energy Meridians
or Nadis which have been mapped on the body for 4000 years in China and India.
Yet the deeper Blockages can only be
removed by Higher Techniques Like ENERGY ENHANCEMENT
Experientially, the electrical resistance of the body is much higher on the
acupuncture points!! Energetic blockages attract toxins to the part of the
physical body where the blockage is, causing stiffness, pain and eventually
disfunction and failure of the organ affected. Remove the energetic blockage and
the physical toxins will eventually be flushed away!!
According to the Shen Flow of traditional chinese Acupuncture, negative emotions
are created by energic blockages in the energy pathways in the body called
Meridians or Nadis:-
-
A Wood
Blockage will cause -
Anger
-
A Fire Blockage will cause
-
Manicism
-
An Earth
Blockage will cause
-
Wanting Sympathy and attention
-
An Metal
Blockage will cause
-
Depression or sadness
-
A Water
Blockage will cause-
Fear.
Negative
Emotions are diseases caused by energetic blockages.
Remove
the energetic blockage through Energy Enhancement techniques and the negative
emotion disappears. Only positive emotions remain.
Love and
the power of the true will which comes from the higher energy levels of the
Soul.
Energy Enhancement teaches Ancient Meditational
Techniques to remove these Blockages more deeply than any other system!!
It is
easy to see how if you have two meridians blocked you can get mood swings like
manic depression or any
combination of the above.
One of our clients was cured of manic depression.
One of
our clients now has no epilepsy.
Energy
Blockages eventually degenerate the body causing organ failure.
With
three blockages I have
been told by my acupuncture teacher, Professor Worsley, that one will die within
six months.
Positive
thoughtforms or psychic powers are fine when we do not desire them for our
separated selves, are
OK when they come to us when we need them.
Only with these Energy Enhancement techniques can you free
yourself from the psychic
drainage of these Blockages, attachments, psychic implants, and negative
thoughtforms, which have accumulated in our Aura from our past lives.
Thoughtforms connected to various people, Groups and Organisations. We teach how
to deal with all these energies in turn.
Usually we find these energies blocking the Heart and Crown chakras, but all chakras and the aura suffer from negative programs
and energy blocks.
With these techniques we can learn how to access
spiritual vision so that we can heal the energy bodies of our
students at a distance or with a glance.
It
is also a training in the Creation and dissolution of Thoughtforms on this Earth
plane, anywhere or in anybody or in any
organisation in the world, the major use of the energy released when the Base
Chakra powers the Triangle of Chakras in the Head.
As above,
so below.
As you free
yourself from negative programming, implanted in you by many organisations, over
many lifetimes, so you become capable of healing
all those who come into contact with you. As this occurs so the waves of
Universal Love, the Energy of
Change,
spread out towards all groups, all individuals you contact.
With these
techniques we start the healing process of the World.
Perfect
Love is Perfect Freedom from all lower energy attachments - the Energy of
Change.
As we gain
Energy we become more fulfilled spiritually. Energy Enhancement shows us the
way.
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ENHANCEMENT IN ARGENTINA
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ARE MANY
The Energy Enhancement Symbol
The Energy Enhancement Symbol
of the Twelve Petalled Lotus of the Heart Center with One of the Symbols of the
Worlds Major Religions in Each One of the Petals. Inside the symbol is the
Hexagram - The Seal of Solomon, with the Seven Chakras describing the Three
Initiations on the Path of Enlightenment
- Initiation 1. The Opening of
the Heart. Solar Plexus to Heart Chakra.
Initiation 2. The Mastery of
Relationships, Abdomen to Throat Chakra.
Initiation 3. Enlightenment, Base to
all the Head Chakras which is taught on the Energy Enhancement Course plus many
other Initiations.
At the
Very Center is the Heart Chakra radiating Peace and Light outwards.. like the
Sun...
"The day is short and
the work is Great and the workers are Lazy. But the reward is Large and our
Master urges us to make Haste."
Writings of the Abbod of
Halmyrach
SPEED UP
THE PROCESS OF ENLIGHTENMENT
Speed Up the Process of
Evolution, Intelligence, Emotional Stability, Energy, Kindness, Wisdom and Leadership
which many courses profess to teach but which
Energy Enhancement has given
with both hands to the
many and varied students taught by it.
STOP THE PAIN -
TRANSMUTE
AND DISSOLVE ALL TRAUMA
AND NEGATIVE ENERGY
TRAUMA AND PAIN CREATE NEGATIVE ENERGY
WHICH CREATES ENERGY BLOCKAGES, THE CAUSE OF ALL NEGATIVE EMOTIONS, DISEASE
AND SUB PERSONALITIES, THE CAUSE OF ALL THE PROBLEMS OF HUMANITY.
ENERGY ENHANCEMENT TEACHES TECHNIQUES TO
PURIFY NEGATIVE ENERGY, RELEASE ALL THE PROBLEMS OF HUMANITY; HEAL ALL
THAT!!
Testimonial From Gary Spaid a Wealth Counselor in Vail Valley, Colorado, USA.
So, what
did we get? I can say that practicing the technique of Stage 4 of Level One of
Energy Enhancement with Devi and Satchy gave more power to the top down approach
of Meditation. I had an experience of the MAGIC!! that I so longed for in my
meditation.
Sitting
in the flame of Kundalini and seeing my karma burn up was a POWERFUL
experience.
Graham Kuttner Simons
Spain After Energy Enhancement Course Email...
Graham at the Beach in Spain
hiya Satchi,
howzitgoin?!
<grin!>
I was aware of a fair bit of energy in the car on the way to the airport, and on
the plane - what were you up to?!
I suppose I'm supposed to believe that you were busy "healing" me!!!!
<wink!>
That is the way it felt all right, so, if so, thank you very much!
I felt very happy on the plane, and not in a selfish way at all, I felt like I
was sparkling!
<LAUGHS!> I hope yer getting the "tone" / humour of this email,
I'm making fun of myself!
take care!
thanks for everything.
GKS
https://www.energyenhancement.org/page17.htm
A brilliant
movie, 10 November 2005
Author: lubomirv1 from Bulgaria
I watched to movie today and it just blew my mind away. It is a real
masterpiece of art and I don't understand why most of the people think it's
garbage. The main idea of the movie - take your ego away and then you will
have true power! This was the main battle at the end of the movie and Guy
Ritchie has shown that in a magnificent way. "The greatest enemy will hide
in the last place you will ever look" - do you remember this from the movie?
Because our true enemy is in us - it is our ego... That voice that always
tells us that we are important, that gives us our pride, that tells us not
to give, but only to take, that creates our aggression, that wants to be in
control, that creates all the negative feelings and thoughts. GR expressed
this idea in an astonishing way and has shown that the only way to gain true
control is when you loose control and you just let go of your personal
importance. A superb movie!
Chapter
No 7 It Will Devour You Too
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH ONCE
STOPPED A KING IN THE STREET. THE KING SAID, "HOW DARE YOU, A MAN OF NO
ACCOUNT, INTERRUPT THE PROGRESS OF YOUR SOVEREIGN?"
THE DERVISH ANSWERED, "CAN YOU
BE A SOVEREIGN IF YOU CANNOT EVEN FILL MY KASHKUL, THE BEGGING BOWL?"
HE HELD OUT HIS BOWL, AND THE KING
ORDERED IT TO BE FILLED WITH GOLD.
BUT, NO SOONER WAS THE BOWL SEEN TO
BE FULL OF COINS THAN THEY DISAPPEARED, AND THE BOWL SEEMED TO BE EMPTY AGAIN.
SACK AFTER SACK OF GOLD WAS BROUGHT,
AND STILL THE AMAZING BOWL DEVOURED COINS.
"STOP!" SHOUTED THE KING,
'FOR THIS TRICKSTER IS EMPTYING MY TREASURY!"
"TO YOU I AM EMPTYING YOUR
TREASURY," SAID THE DERVISH, "BUT TO OTHERS I AM MERELY ILLUSTRATING A
TRUTH."
"AND THE TRUTH?" ASKED
THE KING.
"THE TRUTH IS THAT THE BOWL IS
THE DESIRES OF MAN, AND THE GOLD WHAT MAN IS GIVEN. THERE IS NO END TO MAN'S
CAPACITY TO DEVOUR, WIT HOUR BEING IN ANY WAY CHANGED. SEE, THE BOWL HAS EATEN
NEARLY ALL YOUR WEALTH, BUT IT IS STILL A CARVED SEA-COCONUT, AND HAS NOT
PARTAKEN OF THE NATURE OF GOLD IN ANY RESPECT.
"IF YOU CARE," CONTINUED
THE DERVISH, "TO STEP INTO THIS BOWL, IT WILL DEVOUR YOU, TOO. HOW CAN A
KING, THEN, HOLD HIMSELF AS BEING OF ANY ACCOUNT?"
MAN IS ALWAYS IN A STATE OF
BECOMING. MAN IS NOT A BEING but a process of becoming. Hence there is so much
misery, anxiety, anguish. Animals are, trees are, mountains are, God also is --
man is not. Man is an effort to be.
Trees are not trying to be, they
simply are. God also is not trying to be, he is one with isness. Man is just in
between the two -- of course tense, pulled apart, torn apart. A part of his
being wants to become one with the animals, another part of his being wants to
rise high into the sky and become God.
Man remains in this tug-of-war.
Walt Whitman says: "There have
been many moments in my life when I had the desire to become an animal again,
because they are so free of desire, so free of anguish, so free of competition,
so free of ambition."
Look into the eyes of a cow, or
into the eyes of a cat or a dog -- all seems to be so quiet and silent. As if
THIS moment is all! But look into the mind of man and you will find a maniac.
And not one but a crowd, not one but the whole madhouse inside. So many madmen
shouting, desiring, asking and asking. And the desires are contradictory. If you
fulfill one, necessarily the other becomes impossible to fulfill. If you fulfill
the other, then something else becomes the problem.
You cannot satisfy man! There is no
communication between his parts. One hand wants to do one thing, another hand
may want to destroy it. A part of you is constantly hankering for the past that
is lost; another part is striving to reach to the future. How can you be at
ease? How can you be at home?
Listen sometimes to what goes on
inside your mind.
Just the other night I was reading
a passage from Ionesco's play, THE BALD SOPRANO:
Two couples -- the Smiths and the
Martins -- sit in a room engaging in small talk which does not communicate. A
weird clock on the wall which strikes at any time does not communicate either.
At one point in the play, the four
characters angrily shout meaningless insults at each other: "Cockatoos,
cockatoos, cockatoos.... Such coca, such coca, such coca.... Such-cascades of
cacao, such cascades of cacao, such cascades of cacao.... "
When the Martins fall into bored
slumber, the maid addresses the audience: "Elizabeth is not Elizabeth,
Donald is not Donald. It is in vain that he thinks he is Donald. It is in vain
that she thinks she is Elizabeth. But who is the true Donald? and who is the
true Elizabeth? Who has any interest in prolonging the confusion?"
Ionesco is telling us in this play
that loss of self is the loss of communication, and the loss of communication is
the loss of self.
Have you watched inside yourself
what goes on? No communication! between one fragment of your being and another
fragment of your being. What to say about communion? There is no communication
even. You are not one: you are a multiplicity. And you are a multiplicity
because of the multiplicity of desires. You want to become so many things.
In the first place, the moment you
want to become something you are losing your being. In the clouds of becoming,
the being is lost. The moment you start thinking in terms of what to become, you
are no more aware of WHO YOU ARE. When becoming is dropped, energy turns back
upon itself.
That's what Jesus calls conversion
-- returning to the source. That's what Patanjali calls PRATYAHAR -- coming back
to oneself. That is what Mahavir calls PRATIKRAMAN -- turning back to one's own
being.
We are all rushing -- rushing for
somewhere there in the future. We are ALL rushing so fast because life is short
and time is fleeting. And we go on rushing, and where do we reach? We reach only
our graves. Nothing ever is fulfilled, because those desires are by their very
nature unfulfillable.
Try to understand the nature of
desire. That is the only deception there is, the only mirage, the only illusion.
If one understands what desire is, one becomes a Buddha. Seeing the futility of
desire, desire is no more valid for you. That dimension simply disappears.
Becoming aware that NO desire is ever fulfilled, cannot be fulfilled by its very
nature, it is intrinsically unfulfillable, you need not then renounce it.
Those who renounce have not
understood. Those who have understood, they don't renounce -- there is nothing
to renounce! Simply, the desire is no more relevant. It slips out of your hands
-- not that you renounce it. It simply becomes utterly meaningless. In that very
understanding you are free of it.
The whole work of sannyas is to
understand the nature of desire. What is the nature of desire?
First thing: it always hankers for
that which is not. Now, look into it, meditate over it. This is the very nature
of desire: asking for that which is not. How can it be fulfilled? When you have
it, your desire will have moved away.
You see a beautiful house, and you
desire it and you long for it end you dream about it, and you work hard for
years. And then one day the house is yours. But you are surprised, a revelation:
the moment the house is yours, the desire is no more there for it. It has
already moved. It is never in the present. It can only be in the future. Future
is its space, its soil; it grows there. Present is not its soil. In the present
it dies -- immediately dies. So when the house is yours, and you have moved into
the house, suddenly you are surprised: where are those beautiful dreams that you
have been dreaming about the house? House is yours, but where are those dreams?
They have flown away.
The English poet, Byron, was in
love with a woman. He was in love with many women, it is said near about sixty
women -- and he didn't live long. And to each woman he was saying, "Without
you I cannot live." And he was deceiving. And the deception may not have
been conscious, because he was a good man. It may have been unconscious. He may
not have been doing it on purpose, but it was happening. Whenever he became
interested in a woman, the whole world would disappear. That woman would be his
target.
And he was a beautiful man,
talented, a genius. And women are always interested in people who have some kind
of talent, some kind of genius. Women are always interested not in the physical
beauty as much as in something inner. And Byron had it! that magic touch, that
magnetism. So it was very easy for any woman to fall in love with him. But the
love would not last for a few days, at the most for a few weeks, and Byron would
move to somebody else.
When he fell in love with one
woman, she was very very insistent: "Unless you get married to me I am not
interested. You say you are ready to die for me -- I don't want you to die for
me. I simply want you to get married to me."
Now, that was a bigger demand. It
is very easy to die -- it is so poetic, so romantic -- but to live with a woman
and to get married is so unpoetic, so unromantic, so utterly meaningless. Byron
tried to avoid and avoid, but the woman was also very clever. She had learnt
many stories about Byron, that this was happening: "Within weeks, within
days, his interest simply disappears. He starts looking at the woman as if he
has not known her at all, as if she does not exist."
The more the woman avoided Byron,
the more he became infatuated. That is the nature of desire. The more the woman
looked unapproachable, the more mad he was. The more the woman created
hindrances, the more he was bent upon it to get her. He was ready to do anything
-- even marriage. They got married.
The day they got married... Byron
and his wife are coming down the steps of the church, the wedding bells are
still ringing, guests are still in the church, coming out, Byron is holding the
hand of the woman for whom for months he has been dreaming and has not been able
to sleep, has not been able to think of anything else. She has been for these
few months his whole life.
And suddenly he saw another woman
pass by... and for a moment he forgot the woman to whom he had just got married.
His hand slipped out of the hand of the woman. The woman saw what was happening.
Those eyes were focussed on the movement of some other woman, and she asked
Byron, "What are you doing?"
And Byron said, "I am sorry,
but I have to be true to you. When I saw this woman, my whole energy moved
towards her. I forgot about you, completely. It is not conscious that I have
taken my hand out of your hand. You ceased to exist in that moment. And I know I
was mad after you, but the MOMENT we were married something disappeared. The
oasis is no more an oasis. You are an ordinary woman."
And you will see this happening to
you again and again, if you are alert. You strive for a certain thing -- and you
GET it one day! But ALL joy is in the waiting, dreaming, fantasizing. When you
get it, it is finished -- because desire cannot live in the present. Desire
cannot live with that which is available to you, which is yours. Desire lives
only in that emptiness....
Whatsoever you have is NEVER an
object of desire -- how can it be? What you DON'T have is the object of desire.
So whenever you have it, the moment you have it, it ceases to be an object of
desire. This is the intrinsic nature of desire. Hence desire just drives you and
drives you... to NO point! It is a vicious circle. You go on moving, much
movement... MUCH ADO ABOUT NOTHING! A TALE TOLD BY AN IDIOT FULL OF FURY AND
NOISE SIGNIFYING NOTHING -- that's what desire is.
But that is where man is caught.
Man is not caught in the world. Don't renounce the world. The world has nothing
to do with it. There are thousands of people who have renounced the world
without understanding the nature of desire -- they remain the same. They can
move to the Himalayas or to a monastery -- Catholic, Hindu, Christian,
Mohammedan -- they can go to Tibet, but nothing is going to happen.
In fact, this is again another game
of the desire. Now, they are not desiring the things of the world -- they are
desiring things of the beyond. Now they desire God, they desire paradise, they
desire heaven, they desire Nirvana, enlightenment. But they go on desiring! And
desire is the problem, not what you desire. The object is irrelevant. Desire can
live with any object. It can live with money, it can live with power, prestige,
respectability; it can live with God, it can live with enlightenment. Any object
will do.
IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND DESIRE you
will go on changing your objects of desire. And the desire will continue the
same. And you will be in the grip of it.
This is a very unconscious state.
You are SUFFERING from desire, but you think you are suffering from things.
People think they are suffering from their wives, from their husbands, children,
society, people. No. Not at all. You are suffering only from one thing: desire.
Come to the root cause of it, and
try to understand the root cause. And my emphasis is on understanding. I am not
saying DO something about it. I am not saying DON'T desire -- no, not at all. I
will be the last person to say don't desire. I am saying something totally
different: Look into desire. Meditate on desire. Go deep into it. SEE it as
deeply as possible. Layer upon layer, penetrate into it. Penetrate to the very
CORE of it.
In that very penetration there
comes a renunciation which is not of your making. There comes a renunciation
which is a gift. And because it comes out of understanding you need not
cultivate it, you need not practice it. Its very coming is transforming. You go
through a mutation.
Let this be your criterion forever:
that that which you do is going to remain superficial -- you ARE superficial,
how can you do anything in depth? Your doing is not going to help. Your doing
has been your undoing up to now. No more of it. Now change the emphasis. It is
not a question of doing.
Sannyas is not a question of doing:
it is a question of awareness, understanding, observation, witnessing. Witness
desire.
Below man, there is no desire.
There are no needs. They are momentary. The tiger is hungry, he searches for the
prey. When he is not hungry, there is no desire.
One day, a tiger and a hare entered
into a restaurant. And the tiger asked for Coca-Cola. The waiter asked the hare,
"What would you like? And your friend has asked only for Coca-Cola -- is he
not hungry?"
The hare said, "What are you
asking? If he was hungry, should I be here? He would have breakfasted long
before. He is not hungry -- that's why I am with him."
If a tiger is hungry, he eats! But
when he is not hungry, he does not hoard. He never thinks of the future.
Tomorrow does not exist for him. When the spring comes, trees bloom; they don't
prepare for it, they don't fantasize about it, they don't have great desires of
blooming. They don't go through rehearsals; they don't cultivate. They don't do
yoga. When spring comes they bloom! It is simple, it is spontaneous. It is not
out of desire -- hence the beauty of nature, hence the immense silence of
nature. There is no desire. The desire has not entered yet. It cannot enter,
because for desire to enter a little bit of conscious-ness is needed --
otherwise, how will you think of tomorrow? How will you think of death How will
you think of beyond? How will you plan for the future?
A little consciousness is needed --
but only a little, because we have seen Buddhas who are fully conscious: again
desire disappears. A Buddha again lives spontaneously, like a tree, like a rock,
like a river. Of course, there is a great difference the difference is that the
Buddha is conscious and the tree is unconscious. But there is a great similarity
too: both are utterly in the moment.
Buddha is in the moment because he
is fully conscious; the tree is in the moment because it is fully unconscious.
One thing is similar, that both are non-dual, a single phenomenon. Buddha is
pure consciousness -- consciousness and only consciousness. CHINMATRAM -- just
consciousness. There is no duality involved in it. And the tree is unconscious
-- ACHINMATRAM -- just unconsciousness no duality involved, purity, one.
When the dual comes, tension comes.
With the dual, the tug-of-war. Man is dual. A part has become conscious, and the
greater part has remained still unconscious. Man is like an iceberg -- only the
tip of the iceberg is conscious, one tenth. Nine tenths is underneath the water,
unconscious. Between these two there is bound to be conflict, a civil war.
Man is a constant civil war. The
conscious says, "Do this," the unconscious says, "Do that."
They are totally different phenomena. They can't understand each other. There is
no possibility of any communication. One says one thing, another says another
thing. There has never been any communication between them.
Because of this split, man remains
in a turmoil, and remains absolutely unconscious of who he is. If he listens to
the conscious he is one thing. If he listens to the unconscious he is totally
another. That's why man is divided in many ways. Not only psychologically --
biologically, physiologically man has divided himself. The upper part of the
body seems to be higher; the lower part seems to be lower -- not just lower, but
low in an evaluating sense. You are identified with the upper part of the body;
you are not identified with the lower part of the body. The lower seems animal.
And you are constantly repressing it.
Because of these repressions, there
has arisen a China Wall and you are not one. And without being one, there is no
possibility of peace.
The animals are in peace, in utter
peace. The Buddha is in peace. Man? Man is just in misery.
Sometimes man decides, as Walt
Whitman says, just to become an animal. That's why there is so much attraction
in drugs: they help you for a moment to lose your consciousness. You are again
one. It may be alcohol or it may be modern drugs, but they give you a release --
a release from the tense life. You relax, you become calm. Suddenly you are one
again. And life seems to be no more a continuous fight in which failure is
absolutely certain.
When you are drunk, you can dance
again, sing again, be loving again. There is no more competition, no more
politics. But how long can you remain in a drugged state? You have to come out
of it. It cannot become a permanent state. And when you come back, those worries
those anxieties, are waiting for you -- and they jump upon you with a vengeance.
Then it becomes a vicious thing: when you become too tired of the worries, you
fall into a drugged coma; and then you come again and the worries are there --
they have grown meanwhile. When you were fast asleep in the coma, they were
growing, they were multiplying. They don't wait for you. When you come back they
are there to be taken care of.
Man constantly wants to fall back
but cannot. All his efforts, at the most, can succeed for a few moments. But
this is easier -- to fall back. It is always easier because it is downhill. The
other way to be blissful is to become a Buddha, but that is an uphill task; one
has to grow, grow in consciousness. That is the only growth, remember! To grow
in consciousness is the only growth. To transform your dark continent inside
into an eternal light, to fill your whole being with light and awareness --
that's what growth is.
JUST WATCH YOUR LIFE, HOW CONSCIOUS
YOU ARE. You will be surprised -- it is negligible, it is almost zero. It is
very fragile, your consciousness. It is not even skin-deep. Somebody insults you
and the consciousness is gone, and you are boiling with anger, mad. Somebody
praises you, and the consciousness is gone, and you are puffed up and your ego
becomes huge. Just SMALL things!
Just two persons standing by the
road when you pass by start laughing, and you are hurt. They may not be laughing
at you -- there are millions of things to laugh at. You are not the only person
to laugh at. They start whispering something, and you start thinking they must
be whispering against you, otherwise why should they whisper? Why can't they
talk loudly? And suspicion has arisen. And you are in a turmoil. What is your
consciousness?
Rena went into the City Clerk's
office to report the birth of her sixth child.
"But, miss, this is your sixth
child by the same father," said the clerk. "Why don't you marry
him?"
"Are you jivin'?" replied
Rena. "I don't even like the sonuvabitch!"
Then why do you go on making love
to this man? But you should not ask the question. People go on doing a thousand
and one things, not knowing why they are doing them, for what. They are simply
doing them because they have nothing else to do; they are simply doing them to
keep themselves occupied.
A man was getting married, and his
friends asked him, "How come? Because you were introduced to this woman
only two, three days ago. Have you fallen in love or something?"
And he said, "Nothing of the
kind! We were dancing in the club and after a few minutes I could not find what
to say to her, so I proposed."
You can laugh at it, but think of
your own proposals... were they out of your consciousness, or just because you
couldn't find anything else to say? And one HAS to say something. Just think:
when you talk with a friend or your wife or your husband, are you really
talking, or is it just that one has to say something? Silence seems so
embarrassing.
And just because something has to
be said, you say it, and then it creates trouble. Ninety-nine percent of your
troubles will disappear if you stop talking too much.
I have heard:
A hunter went into the jungle. He
found there a skull. He was just sitting by the side of the skull, underneath
the tree -- he was tired and exhausted. Nothing else to do, and there being
nobody else he just said "Hello!" to the skull -- just by the way.
But he was surprised: the skull
said "Hello!" He was shocked too. He said, "Can you talk?"
The skull said, "Yes!"
And the man asked, "What
brought you here, to this situation?" The skull said, "Talking, too
much talking."
He was scared. He ran away from the
place. He could not believe it. He immediately went to the king, because this
was a miraculous phenomenon. And he told the king, "Something one will not
believe I have seen, I have heard with my own ears a skull talking! I said
'Hello!' because there was nothing else to do and there was nobody else either.
Just the skull was Lying by the side of the tree. I never thought... but the
skull said 'Hello!'"
He was still trembling.
"And I asked the skull, and
she answers! She says, 'Yes.' She can talk."
The king said, "You must be
joking."
He said, "No! I bet!"
The king said, "Okay, I will
come."
And the whole court followed, and
the king went there, and of course the skull was there, and the man went close
to the skull and said, "Hello!" And she didn't reply. He said,
"HELLO!" loudly, and the skull remained silent. He said, "What
has happened to you?" But no answer.
And the king said, "I knew it
before. Either you are a madman or you have some deceptions in your mind. Cut
this man's head!"
The head was cut and thrown there,
and the king returned. When the king returned, the skull said to the head
"Hello!"
He said, "You fool! Why didn't
you speak THAT time?"
And the skull asked, "What
brought you here?"
And the head said, "Too much
talking."
Ninety-nine percent of your
problems will disappear if you don't talk too much. But what else to do? Life is
so empty! One fills it somehow, patches it, stuffs it, makes it look as if it is
full. Desires help you infinitely. They keep you on the go. They make you feel
that something is happening or is going to happen. They keep you hoping. They
keep you on the move; otherwise, how will you move? how you will live? But all
those desires are unconscious. You don't know from where they come, how they
take possession of you, where their source is.
Armstrong was brought into court
for non-support by his wife.
"Young man," said the
judge, "your wife says you have twelve children and you don't support them.
How can a man who doesn't support his family want to have so many
children?"
"Your Honour," said
Armstrong, "when I get that feel in', I feel I could support the whole
world."
But from where does that feeling
come? It comes from somewhere in your innermost core, but it is dark and you
have never groped for it, from where it comes. The only thing that a man has to
do to get out of the misery that is created by the unconscious and the problems
that are created by the unconscious is one, the only one key: become more
conscious.
What do I mean when I say become
more conscious? De-automatize your habits. Remember this: de-automatize your
habits. You are walking, it is an automatic habit; you need not be aware of it.
But bring awareness to yourself. Walk fully conscious.
Buddha says: When you stand up,
stand up consciously; when you sit down, sit down consciously. When you say
some-thing, say it very consciously. When you listen to something, listen
consciously. When you are eating, eat consciously.
It happened once:
Buddha was not yet enlightened, was
coming closer and closer and closer. Maybe ninety-nine percent of his being was
almost light; only one percent remained dark. He was just on the verge of
enlightenment. It was just a few days before he became enlightened that this
incident happened.
They were moving -- he had five
disciples with him. A fly came and sat on his forehead. Just out of unconscious
habit, he waved his hand, the FLY went away, but he stopped himself in the
middle of the road with the five disciples watching what happened. Now, there
was a FLY, but he took his hands again, very consciously, slowly, waved at the
FLY -- which was not there!
The disciples were puzzled, they
said, "What are you doing? The FLY is gone! When you first waved your hand,
the FLY went away. What are you doing now?"
Buddha said, "I did it
unconsciously. It is automatic. It was robot like. Now I am doing as I should
have done. The FLY is not there -- that is not the point -- but now I am doing
as I should have done. Consciously I move my hand, slowly, with full awareness,
attentiveness. My mind is nowhere else. My total mind is focussed on this simple
act -- the hand is moving, and then I wave, with great compassion for the fly.
"The first time, I was
walking, I was looking around, and the FLY came. And the robot part of my body
worked, but I was not in it."
That's what happens when you have
learnt something. If you start learning to drive, in the beginning you have to
be very alert -- alert about many things: the wheel, and the accelerator, and
the brake and the clutch, and the people on the road. You have to be conscious
of all these things. Slowly slowly, once you have learnt to drive, you need not
think of anything at all. Everything has become automatized. Now you can sing a
song, smoke a cigarette, listen to the radio, talk to the friend -- you can do
anything! Now, that part, the driving part, needs no attention, your attention
is free.
This is a necessity of life,
otherwise you will not be able to do many things. So whatsoever you have learnt
is always transferred to the robot. Then the robot does it and you are free to
learn something else. This is perfectly okay in ordinary life, but, slowly
slowly, the robot becomes bigger and bigger. And your tiny consciousness remains
tiny.
The work that one has to do upon
oneself consists in taking back from the robot, de-automatizing processes. And
you will be surprised: if you de-automatize any process, great awareness is
released.
Just walk consciously for half an
hour, and you will be surprised how quiet, how peaceful and serene you look and
you feel. Just sitting in your chair, watch your in-going, out-going breath,
silently -- the breath goes in, and you know, you watch, it is going in. Each
step of the breath: it has touched your nostrils, the inner side of the nose, it
is moving, it has touched your throat, it has moved, it has gone deep into your
lungs; you can feel the belly coming up. And then you feel for a moment it has
stopped. No movement. And then the return journey: the belly falls back, the air
is going out; again you feel the same route. It leaves your nostrils... and
again a moment's gap. And then again new fresh air moves in.
If you simply watch such a simple
process, you will be surprised: one hour's watching of breath will bring you so
much silence and so much alertness, as you have never felt in your life. And
that makes a difference. THAT is the difference that makes the difference, that
transforms your whole life, slowly slowly. Then you can change everything:
eating, walking, breathing -- even making love can become a very very conscious,
alert phenomenon.
And then from everywhere,
consciousness goes on pouring in. And, slowly slowly, the balance changes: you
become more conscious than you are unconscious. Then you start leaning towards
God, farther and farther away you start moving from the animals. When a man is
really conscious, all desires disappear just as dewdrops disappear when in the
morning the sun rises.
Desires have not to be dropped,
they have also to be used to grow in consciousness.
Now this famous Sufi story -- it is
one of the greatest gems:
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH ONCE
STOPPED A KING IN THE STREET. THE KING SAID, "HOW DARE YOU, A MAN OF NO
ACCOUNT, INTERRUPT THE PROGRESS OF YOUR SOVEREIGN?"
We will go into EACH important
word:
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH...
A DERVISH IS ONE WHO HAS ATTAINED.
A dervish is one who has arrived. A dervish is one whose journey is complete,
whose circle is complete. A dervish is one who no longer has any desires, a
state of desirelessness. But the state of desirelessness is the state of bliss
-- SATCHITANANDA -- it is the state of bliss, of consciousness of truth. The
dervish is the highest point of growth.
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH ONCE
STOPPED A KING...
Now, tune dervish looks like a
beggar, and is REALLY the king. And the king looks like a king, but is nothing
but a beggar. The dervish has nothing, but has all; in having nothing he has
become capable of having all. By becoming empty of all desires he is full of
God. There is no need to ask for more. More cannot be conceived.
The dervish lives like a beggar,
but only from the outside. If you can look into him, if you have eyes to see, if
you have a little alertness, you will find him luminous, you will find in him
all the grandeur of God, all the splendor of existence. He is the richest man
there is.
Swami Ram used to call himself an
emperor. When he went to America, people cult not understand. In the East we
know; in the East this has become now a definite conclusion. Thousands of years
of experience have proved it again and again, that only people like Buddha are
real emperors. And the so-called emperors are just beggars somehow hiding their
inner emptiness.
The kings, the presidents, and the
prime ministers are nothing but people suffering from inferiority complexes.
Hence creating much noise around themselves to show others that "We are not
nothing. We are somebody’s!" A man who tries to prove that he is somebody
is simply showing that deep down he is afraid of his nobodiness. If he becomes
the president of a country, of course he can prove -- at least to the fools he
can prove that he is somebody. And looking in the eyes of those fools, he
himself can believe, "When so many people believe that I am somebody, I
must be somebody. How can so many people be wrong?" He deceives others and
is deceived in return. It is a self-deception. The East knows it.
The East has known real emperors.
And it has known a long long series of beggars too. You will be surprised: the
East has never been interested in writing the history of emperors, prime
ministers and all those kinds of neurotic people. The East's interest has been
in Buddhas, Ramas, Krishnas.
The West is very much puzzled why
we have not been interested in history. We have been writing real history --
because the real history consists of the evolution of human consciousness. The
real history has nothing to do with money, the real history has nothing to do
with power-politics. The real history has only to do with one thing: that is who
comes in the world with light, religious light, bliss, consciousness; takes
humanity a step further into growth.
But when Swami Ram went to America,
people were naturally puzzled. He was a beggar, and he called himself an
emperor! People started asking him, "Why do you call yourself an emperor?
You don't have anything."
And he laughed, and he said,
"That's why -- because I don't have anything, because I don't NEED! I am an
emperor, because all that I need I have. And your emperors are not emperors,
because they will never have all that they need. Their desires wily go on
multiplying themselves. They will live the life of a beggar, and they will die
the life of a beggar."
Look into the hearts of the rich
people -- they have to be pitied. They are poorer than the poor. It sometimes
happens that in a poor person's heart you may find a jewel, luminous, but rarely
in a rich man's heart, because to become rich he has to sell his soul. To become
a prime minister or a president he has to destroy his self, he has to
compromise. He has to adjust to the demands of the stupid humanity, the
majority. He can lead people only if he follows them -- so your great leaders
are nothing but great followers of the masses and the mob.
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH ONCE
STOPPED A KING IN THE STREET.
And why in the street? Because the
king is always and always moving. He is always searching for more; he is always
in the street, he is always on a journey, because there are many things yet to
be attained.
When Alexander came to India,
Diogenes asked him -- a very rare man, Diogenes.... Naked he lived, like
Mahavir, an utterly blissful man. He asked Alexander, "Where are you
going?"
Alexander said, "I am going to
conquer the whole world!"
And Diogenes asked, "Then
what? Then what will you do?"
Alexander was a little puzzled
because nobody had asked this: "Then what?" He shrugged his shoulders,
and then said, "Then I will rest."
And Diogenes started laughing --
that mad laughter. Only enlightened people can do that. Embarrassed, Alexander
said, "Why are you laughing?"
He said, "I am laughing
because I am resting right now!"
He was Lying down on the bank of a
river, naked, it was early morn g. Fresh air, and the sun was rising and the
birds were singing, and it was all beatitude. And he said, "You fool! I am
resting, and you will rest when you have conquered the whole world, then what is
the point? If I can rest without conquering the world, why can't you? Come on!
Lie down by the side of me! And this bank is so big, it can take both of us.
There is no problem, no competition."
Alexander was hypnotized by this
man. He said, "You are right. Nobody has dared to say such things to me. I
see the point, but right now I cannot stop because I am in the middle of my
journey, I am on the road. I have to conquer and finish things, then I will
come."
Diogenes said, "You can go.
But remember: this road is endless. You will never be able to come back."
It is NEVER completed. Who has ever
been able to complete it? Death comes before! And it happened exactly like that.
Alexander could not come back. He died. He never came back to his country; he
died in the middle. And the moment he was dying, only Diogenes was in his mind.
In that moment, just think how poor he must have looked to himself, and how rich
Diogenes was -- how beggarly he was. Begged and begged and begged... and to no
point! And was dying.
It was because of the memory of
Diogenes that he told his generals, "When you take my body to the cemetery,
let my hands hang out in the procession -- out of the casket."
"Why?" the generals
asked, "because we have never heard of any tradition like that."
He said, "So that everybody
can see that Diogenes was right -- I am dying empty-handed. Let them see my
hands! My whole life was empty and I am dying empty-handed, nothing in my
hands."
Every king is in the street.
IT IS RELATED THAT A DERVISH ONCE
STOPPED A KING IN THE STREET. THE KING SAID, "HOW DARE YOU, A MAN OF NO
ACCOUNT INTERRUPT THE PROGRESS OF YOUR SOVEREIGN?"
IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO SEE who is
the man of account and who his the man of no account. It takes great insight to
see it. Those who appear on the surface men of account are not. They are just
pretenders. And those who don't appear at all as men of account are. But
appearances won't help.
THE DERVISH ANSWERED, "CAN YOU
BE A SOVEREIGN IF YOU CANNOT EVEN FILL MY KASHKUL, THE BEGGING BOWL?"
Now the Sufi Master is creating a
situation. Great must have been his compassion. He is creating a situation, and
a rare situation. He says, "You and a sovereign? And you think yourself a
man of account? If you are, then do this simple thing. I have got this begging
bowl, this KASHKUL, can you fill it?"
The king must have laughed:
"This man is mad. Such a small begging bowl I cannot fill?"
HE HELD OUT HIS BOWL, AND THE KING
ORDERED IT TO BELLED WITH GOLD.
BUT NO SOONER WAS THE BOWL SEEN TO
BE FULL OF COINS THAN THEY DISAPPEARED, AND THE HOWL SEEMED TO BE EMPTY AGAIN.
SACK AFTER SACK OF GOLD WAS
BROUGHT, AND STILL THE AMAZING BOWL DEVOURED COINS.
"STOP!" SHOUTED THE KING,
"FOR THIS TRICKSTER IS EMPTYING MY TREASURY!"
Still he could not see the point.
It is so difficult to see the point. The Master was confronting him. The Master
has come to the disciple. The Master is creating a situation in which even a
blind man will be able to see, in which the deaf will be able to hear, and the
heartless will start feeling again. But people are stubborn -- stubborn in their
idiocies, stubborn in their ideologies, stubborn in their conceptions and
prejudices.
"STOP!" SHOUTED THE.KING,
"FOR THIS TRICKSTER IS EMPTYING MY TREASURY!"
The Master looks like a trickster,
as if he is after his treasury. He is after him, certainly, but not after his
treasury. A Master is always after the disciple. But you can miss, because
sometimes the situation may be such that your whole mind will interpret it in a
wrong way.
The king knows only money and money
and money. He understands only one language -- the language of money. Now,
certainly, this man is cheating. He can see only some device: "The begging
bowl is a trick. It cannot be filled and he will empty my whole treasure. And he
has caught me -- he has provoked me and now he is cheating."
"TO YOU," SAID THE
DERVISH, "I AM EMPTYING YOUR TREASURY..."
"... because you cannot see
beyond that. Your eyes are focussed on money. You can only think of money. All
is always translated by you in terms of money -- as if money is all. Life is
much more: money is nothing."
"TO YOU I AM EMPTYING YOUR
TREASURY," SAID THE DERVISH, "BUT TO OTHERS I AM MERELY ILLUSTRATING A
TRUTH."
WHO ARE THESE OTHERS? The dervish
must have been Surrounded by his disciples. It was a situation for the king, and
it was a situation for his disciples too. To those disciples he was illustrating
a truth. What truth was he illustrating? And the king asked:
"AND THE TRUTH? WHAT
TRUTH?"
"THE TRUTH IS THAT THE BOWL IS
THE DESIRES OF MAN..."
The bowl is made of the mind of
man. The bowl is made of the skull of man. It represents man's mind -- his
constant hankering to become this, to become that, to gain, to profit. It
represents greed. It represents that CONSTANT effort to be something other than
you are, to be somewhere else, to be more, to have more. This madness for more
is represented by the bowl.
"THE TRUTH IS THAT THE BOWL IS
THE DESIRES OF MAN, AND THE GOLD WHAT MAN IS GIVEN.... "
And God has given much more than
you really need, much more than you deserve. God has been a showering, a
constant showering, of gifts on you. You have not earned them. But look at the
thanklessness of man. Even to thank God seems to be impossible. We go on
complaining to God. We go on asking for more. All your prayers are nothing but
demands for more.
Have you ever prayed without
demanding anything? directly, indirectly?
A woman, a young woman, heard a
mystic say, "You should not ask God anything for yourself. Ask for others,
then the prayers will be heard. Ask because of compassion."
The woman was young but was very
much worried... in fact she had come to the mystic only to be blessed. She
wanted a husband, and it was getting late. Must have been homely, ordinary; must
have been poor or something. But now the mystic says, "Ask not for
yourself, only then will the prayers be fulfilled." So what is the point in
praying? But then she found a way.
She went into the temple and prayed
to God, "God, give my mother a beautiful son-in-law."
Directly or indirectly, all your
prayers are demands. And a demand poisons the prayer and kills it, cuts its
wings. Then it cam lot reach to God. Only prayers which have no demands are
weightless enough to fly into that plenitude.
" THE TRUTH IS THAT THE BOWL
IS THE DESIRES OF MAN, AND THE GOLD WHAT MAN IS GIVEN. THERE IS NO END TO MAN'S
CAPACITY TO DEVOUR WITHOUT BEING IN ANY WAY CHANGED...."
And man goes on devouring. You can
go on giving. The more you give, the more demand comes, but the frustration
continues. The gap between the man and his desire remains constant. It is one of
the constants in the world, unchanging.
The difference between you and the
horizon remains constant. You can go on and on, and whether you go on foot or
you rush in a plane makes no difference -- the horizon remains there, ALWAYS
there, never here. The closer you come to the horizon, the more it goes on
receding. You never come close.
It is not that man is not given
anything. Just think of this beauty! of this benediction of existence, of this
silence, of this joy, this celebration! Have you ever thanked God for a rose
flower? If not, then WHEN are you going to thank him? Have you ever thanked God
for the dewdrops slipping so quietly from the grass leaves in the early sun, so
pearl-like? And sometimes when the rays penetrate them, a small rainbow arises
around them. Have you not looked at this beauty? at this poetry? at this
constant celebration of existence? When are you going to thank God? For what are
you waiting? Have you forgotten to thank? Have you forgotten to bow down in
gratitude?
Those who know, they always thank
and praise, even in moments when you will not think that praise is possible.
Let me remind you of Zusya, the
same mad mystic who would run and jump and dance into the synagogue, so madly,
so wildly, that everybody else who was in the synagogue would escape, because he
would turn tables upside down. And whosoever would come in between him and his
dance would be thrown. His dance was of such abandon that he would forget
everybody! He would forget himself -- only God existed in those moments.
Zusya's son died, his only Son and
he had loved the son tremendously. And do you know what? He danced! He danced
all the way to the cemetery. He was dancing and tears of joy were flowing from
his eyes. And he was saying to God, "Look! You had given me such a
beautiful and such a pure soul, and I am returning the beautiful and the pure
soul AS beautiful as it was. It has not been contaminated at all. Can't you
see?! I am returning your gift back to you. I am happy that for these few days
you have given this gift to me. I am immensely grateful. It must be time that
the child has to go back home."
If you see, then all and everything
becomes a cause to celebrate. If you can't see, then everything is a cause for a
complaint.
"THE TRUTH IS THAT THE BOWL IS
THE DESIRES OF MAN, AND THE GOLD WHAT MAN IS GIVEN. THERE IS NO END TO MAN'S
CAPACITY TO DEVOUR, WITHOUT BEING IN ANY WAY CHANGED."
And things go on showering on you,
and you never change, you remain at most the same! You devour everything, but
nothing transforms you.
"SEE, THE BOWL HAS EATEN
NEARLY ALL YOUR WEALTH, BUT IT IS STILL A CARVED SEA-COCONUT, AND HAS NOT
PARTAKEN OF THE NATURE OF GOLD IN ANY RESPECT."
Remember this. If you start feeling
grateful, you will be transformed. You will start changing your being from baser
metal into gold -- this is what alchemy is all about, and this is what sannyas
is all about. Sannyas is the purest alchemy, the new alchemy, the science of
transforming the baser into the higher. And the bridge is gratitude.
Feel grateful! Search for causes to
be grateful, and you will find INFINITE causes. In the morning the sun rises and
there is enough cause, MORE than enough, to dance and sing. God has risen in the
sun. And by the evening when the sun is setting, sing and dance! Soon the night
is coming with its beautiful darkness and all those stars. Soon the mystery will
surround you, the mystery of darkness and the coolness of darkness and the
silence of darkness and its infinite music.
Just go on looking for reasons to
celebrate, and you WILL become religious. And, slowly slowly, each gratitude
felt deeply transforms you. Desires never transform, only gratitude transforms
-- and they are diametrically opposite. Desire means: "Give me more! I am
complaining. I am demanding." Gratitude says: "You have given me so
much that I never deserved in the first place. I am grateful, I am
thanking."
See the point. Desire says:
"Give me more!" Gratitude says: "You have given already so much!
Nothing more is needed. It is enough for me to live with it for eternity."
Desire takes you into the future. Gratitude makes you still, in the present.
Gratitude is meditation. It is being silently here now... and the whole opens
up. And thousands of lotuses bloom in your being.
That fragrance transforms you. That
fragrance will fill your begging bowl. You will become an emperor. You will not
be a beggar any more.
This is what I would like to give
to you here. But if you desire, it cannot be given. If you don't desire, it can
be given. If you ask for it, you will miss. If you don't ask for it and you
celebrate, you have got it already!
"IF YOU CARE," CONTINUED
THE DERVISH, "TO STEP INTO THIS BOWL, IT WILL DEVOUR YOU TOO. HOW CAN A
KING, THEN, HOLD HIMSELF AS BEING OF ANY ACCOUNT?"
YES, THAT"S WHAT HAPPENS
REALLY. This more, this constant desire for more, this obsession for more,
devours ALL that you go on collecting, and finally devours you too. That's what
death is: devoured by your own desiring, eaten up by your own hungry mind.
That's what death is. Sooner or later, you will step in the bowl. That bowl is
your grave.
And the dervish is right:
"YOU CARE TO STEP INTO THIS
BOWL, IT WILL DEVOUR YOU TOO. HOW CAN A KING, THEN, HOLD HIMSELF AS BEING OF ANY
ACCOUNT?"
"What are you talking
about?" the dervish said. "Do you think yourself of any account? You
cannot even fill this small begging bowl, and you think you are a king? Forget
all about this nonsense. Your kingdom is not worth anything; it cannot even fill
the begging bowl of a beggar. What worth does it have? Even if you step in it,
you will disappear. You are less than the begging bowl of a beggar. What
nonsense are you talking about that you are of some account? You are not."
A man becomes only of some account
when he stops desiring. The moment you stop desiring, you are yourself. Suddenly
you become awakened to your innermost being.
A famous ancient parable:
Once ten men forded a swift and
dangerous river. Upon reaching the shore, they counted to see if all had arrived
safely. But each man could count but nine. A passerby, hearing their wailing
over the loss of a comrade, counted the men and discovered there were ten. He
then asked each man to count, and when he counted, he counted only nine. The
stranger touched him oh the chest and said, "YOU ARE THE TENTH!"
That's the function of a Master: to
put his hand on your heart and to say to you, "You are the tenth!"
You go on searching everywhere,
except in your own being. You count everybody else, but then it only comes up to
nine, one is missing. And you can go on looking for that one for ever and ever,
and you will not find -- because THAT ONE IS YOU!
A man becomes an emperor the moment
he finds himself.
In the same way, a great scientist,
A.S. Eddington, says: "We have found a strange footprint on the shores of
the unknown. We have devised profound theories, one after another, to account
for its origin. At last we have succeeded in reconstructing the creature that
made the footprint. And, lo! It is our own."
You are the tenth. If this simple
key becomes available to you, you are the emperor. Then all the treasures of
life are open for you, and all the mysteries therein.
But everybody is rushing to find
where it is... and it is inside you The I ought is not outside, the sought is in
the seeker. The God is not outside, the God is in the seeker. Seek, and you will
seek in vain. Stop seeking, and look within, and you have found it: And, lo! It
is our own footprint.
The tenth is missing, and the tenth
is you.
LEONARDO
DA VINCI AND ENERGY ENHANCEMENT INITIATION FOUR - SOUL FUSION
Chapter No 8 The Grass Grows By Itself
Chapter No 8 The Grass Grows By Itself
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The first question:
Question 1
WHAT EXACTLY DO YOWL MEAN BY
'CONSCIOUS IGNORANCE'? IS IT THE RECOGNITION THAT ONE IS ULTIMATELY,
FUNDAMENTALLY IGNORANT? OR IS THERE MORE TO IT?
Ashoka, conscious ignorance is not
ignorance at all. It is the ultimate state of consciousness -- how can it be
ignorant? It is pure knowing. Of course, there is no knowledge, hence it is
called ignorance. But there is knowing, utter knowing, clarity, transparency. No
knowledge is gathered, but all is known.
Conscious ignorance means innocence
AND conscious. If innocence is unconscious, sooner or later it will be corrupted
by knowledge. Unconscious mind is always ready to be corrupted, polluted,
distracted.
Consciousness means centering,
awareness -- you cannot be distracted. You remain in your knowing, but you don't
accumulate knowledge. Knowledge is always of the past: knowing is in the
present, is of the present. Like a mirror: the mirror reflects if something
comes before it, but when it passes the mirror is empty again. This is conscious
ignorance -- not that the mirror does not reflect: it reflects, but it doesn't
gather. It is not like a photo plate.
A photo plate becomes
knowledgeable. The moment something is reflected in it, it catches hold of it.
It becomes attached to it. The mirror remains unattached -- available, open,
vulnerable, unprotected, with no defense, yet ALWAYS virgin. This is virginity:
when nothing corrupts you. Things come and pass.
You ask me: WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU
MEAN BY 'CONSCIOUS IGNORANCE'?
It is consciousness, KNOWING
consciousness. Ignorant I am calling it because it cannot claim any knowledge --
that's why. It cannot say "I know."
When the Emperor Wu asked
Bodhidharma, "Who are you?" he simply said, "I don't know."
This is conscious ignorance. We
misunderstood him. He thought, "Then what is the point? If you don't even
know who you are, then what is the difference between me and you? I also don't
know who I am."
We is simply ignorant. Bodhidharma
is consciously ignorant. And that word 'consciousness' makes all the difference
-- all the difference that there is in the world. It transforms the whole
quality of ignorance. Ignorance becomes luminous. It is full of light -- not
full of knowledge but full of light.
You ask: IS IT THE RECOGNITION THAT
ONE IS ULTIMATELY, FUNDAMENTALLY IGNORANT?
No. ONE IS not, so how can one be
fundamentally and ultimately ignorant? To think that one is you have already
gathered knowledge, you have already claimed. You have already declared to the
world that "I am!"
Those who know, they know something
totally different. They know that "I am not -- God is." They know that
"My existence is arbitrary. My existence is a make-believe. 'I' as a
separate entity has never existed. I am just a wave in the ocean."
But when the wave is arising and
reaching to the clouds, it can believe that "I am." And the ocean
meanwhile is laughing and roaring, and knows that this wave has gone crazy. Soon
the wave will disappear in the ocean again. Even when it IS there, it is not
separate from the ocean. You cannot separate a wave from the ocean! Can you
exist even for a single moment without the universe surrounding you? Not for a
single moment.
So who are you? what are you?
IS IT THE RECOGNITION THAT ONE IS
ULTIMATELY, FUNDAMENTALLY IGNORANT?
No. The conscious ignorance knows
that one is not. There is utter silence inside. Nobody has ever been there. You
have dreamt about it; it is your dream. You are nothing but a construct of your
dreaming mind.
And, secondly, ignorance does not
mean that one is ignorant. It simply means that life is ultimately mysterious.
The emphasis is not on your ignorance, remember it, because the ego is very
cunning. It can survive even on the idea of ignorance. It can say, "I am
ignorant -- fundamentally, ultimately I am ignorant. But I am."
First it was claiming its existence
through knowledge: "My knowledge is valid. Nobody else's knowledge is
valid." Now it claims, "No knowledge is valid -- I am ignorant. But I
am." Now, behind ignorance, the I is hiding again. It has taken another
face, a new mask, a new persona, but it is the old game being played with new
rules. The form has changed but the content is the same -- the same dream, the
same stupid dream. The same arbitrary ego claiming absoluteness about itself.
No. When I say ignorance, my
emphasis is never on 1. My emphasis is on the ultimate mysteriousness of
existence. Ignorance is ultimate because existence cannot be reduced to
knowledge. It is irreducible. It is a mystery, and remains a mystery. You cannot
demystify it.
In fact, the more you try to
demystify it, the more and more mysterious it becomes. It gathers new dimensions
of mysteries.
Just watch: five thousand years of
human mind's evolution -- has it helped in any way to demystify existence?
Existence has become far more mysterious than it has ever been before. Go back
five thousand years: there was a limited number of stars, because by the bare
naked eye you cannot count more than three thousand stars in the night. When the
night is dark and full of stars and there are no clouds, at the most you can
count three thousand stars, not more than that, by the bare naked eye. How many
stars are there? Now they say, "We have counted three thousand billion
stars. We used to see only three thousand, now there are three thousand billion
stars. And this is not the end: this is just the beginning of the
counting."
The existence goes ON and on. There
seems to be no possibility that it will be ending somewhere.
When the Vedic mystics looked at
the sky, it was mysterious. When you look at the sky it is far more mysterious.
Medic mystics will feel jealous of you -- but you don't look at the sky.
For thousands of years man believed
that life, existence, consists of matter. Now physicists say there is no matter
-- all is energy. They have not been able to solve the mystery of matter. The
mystery has become very deep. Now there is no matter -- it is all energy.
And what is energy? Now, even to
define it is becoming difficult -- because it was possible to define it in
contrast with matter. Now there is NO matter. How to define it? Definition is
lost. It is there in its sheer mystery. And the efforts that have been made to
define it have made it look even more mysterious.
If you go into modern physics, you
will be surprised. Mystics look not so mysterious now -- with all God and heaven
and angels and souls, even then they don't look so mysterious. The modern world
of physics is far more mysterious, incomprehensibly mysterious. And the infinite
space....
And Albert Einstein says it goes on
expanding... into what? And he says, "We don't know yet into what. But one
thing is certain: it goes on expanding."
Existence is expanding, into what?
Naturally, the question arises. There must be some space beyond it, but that
cannot be said. By the very definition of existence that is prohibited, because
when we say 'existence', we mean ALL that is, space included. ALL THAT IS. Then
how does it expand? into what? There is nothing left outside it!
It is almost as mysterious as one
day you go to the market and you keep yourself in your own pocket. It is
possible to keep yourself in your own pocket? It should be -- if existence can
expand without there being anything to expand into. All space is in, in its
pocket, and it goes on expanding into its own pocket! Looks absurd. Zen khans
are nothing compared to it.
Albert Einstein says the world is
finite. That too is mysterious. If the world is finite, then there must be
something to define it. There must be a boundary! If you call it finite, then
there must be a boundary to it. But to make a boundary you will have to accept
something beyond the boundary, otherwise the boundary cannot be drawn. The
boundary can be drawn only between two things!
You can have a fence around your
house because of the neighbor . If there is NO neighbor, nothing exists beyond
your fence, how are you going to put the fence and where? And how will you
decide that "This is the place where we should put the fence," that
"This part belongs to me and there is nothing outside it"?
But Albert Einstein says this is
how it is: "We can't explain it, but this is how it is. The world is finite
and yet there is no boundary to it. Unbounded finiteness!" Absurd!
Illogical!
And not only that: this unbounded
finiteness is round in shape -- because everything is round. How can an
unbounded thing be round? Who will give it the shape of roundness?
The mystery has thickened every
day. And Albert Einstein is just on the threshold of existence. It is maddening.
So when I say 'conscious
ignorance', I don't mean that you ARE ignorant: I mean that life is so vast and
existence so infinite that there is no way to fathom it. You cannot measure it;
it is immeasurable.
WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU MEAN BY
'CONSCIOUS IGNORANCE'? IS IT THE RECOGNITION THAT ONE IS ULTIMATELY,
FUNDAMENTALLY IGNORANT? OR IS THERE MORE TO IT?
If there is not more to it, then
the mystery is solved. There is ALWAYS more to it! and there will always be more
to it. Whatsoever can be said will never be satisfactory -- there will always
remain more to It.
And I am not saying that what is
not said and you understand inside is enough -- even that is not enough. NOTHING
IS enough. That is the meaning when I say existence is mysterious. It simply
cannot be understood.
To see this point makes one feel
humble. To see this point to let it sink in your heart, one feels like bowing
down. To bow down before this mystery that is unfathomable -- not only unknown
but unknowable -- is prayer.
The second question:
Question 2
I REMEMBER.
I LET GO.
I FORGET.
I LET GO.
MY LOVE AFFAIR WITH LIFE
KEEPS DEEPENING.
STILL, I AM NOT WITHOUT DOUBTS.
BUT THE PLUNGE FORWARD!
A DANCE UNPREDICTABLE.
AND I ALLOW ALL AROUND...
DISSOLVE IN THROUGH SOUND...
AHH, OSHO -- THANK YOU.
A QUESTION ON POLARITIES:
MAN-WOMAN, ZEN-SUFI...
CAN ANY ONE BEING ENCOMPASS IT ALL?
YES, KAVITA, I AM ENCOMPASSING it
all -- so can you. Because being is vast. Being is neither male nor female.
Bodies are male and female. Psychologies are male and female. But not being.
Being is simply being.
At the very core of your existence,
there is no man, no woman. The consciousness is beyond polarity. When you are
witness sing your body, if you are a man you will see a man's body there as an
object; if you are a woman, you will see a woman's body as an object. But the
witness is the witness, man or woman. The witness is neither. The witness is
simply there -- a witness, that's all. A consciousness, an awareness.
That awareness comprehends all.
When you become a witness, when you become a Buddha, all is comprehended. Then
there is no question of polarities.
The world is not just polar. That
is the meaning of the Christian idea of the Trinity and the Hindu concept of
Trimurti. The world is not divided in two -- world is divided in three. The
three is very fundamental. The two is on the surface and the three is at the
center. Man-woman, on the surface. Zen-Sufi, on the surface. But as you move
deeper, as you dive deep into your being, and you reach the center, all
disappears. One simply is. A kind of purity, a pure existence.
Kavita, it is possible -- not only
possible, it has to be made possible. That's my work here. On the path, be a
Sufi or a Zen. When you reach the center, forget all about it. When the goal is
reached, the path has to be forgotten. These are divisions of the path.
One can climb up a mountain from
many sides, can choose different routes. And when you are moving on different
routes, you look as if you are moving in different directions, sometimes
opposite also. One is going to the north, another is going to the south, but
ultimately, when you reach to the peak, you will have come to the same place.
At the peak, Buddha is Christ,
Christ is Krishna, Krishna is Mohammed, Mohammed is Zarathustra, Zarathustra is
Lao Tzu. At the peak ALL distinctions dissolve.
So, Kavita, right now be Zen, be
Sufi, and when you have reached to the peak be Zen/Sufi -- then forget all about
it! But on the path... one has to move on some path. And all paths are good,
because they all lead to the same goal. All doors are good, because they lead to
the same shrine.
You say:
I REMEMBER.
I LET GO.
I forget.
I LET GO.
MY LOVE AFFAIR WITH LIFE
KEEPS DEEPENING.
STILL, I AM NOT WITHOUT DOUBTS.
Don't be worried about it! Doubts
are perfectly natural on the path. If you are without doubts, that means you
have reached the peak. They disappear only at the peak. They have a certain
purpose -- they goad you, they keep you going.
Doubts are not necessarily
hindrances. It depends on you, on how you use your doubts. They can become
hindrances. If because of doubt you simply stop moving, you say, "Unless my
doubt is dissolved I am not going to move," then the doubt has become a
rock. But if you say, "The doubt is there, but in spite of the doubt I am
going to move, because that is the only way to resolve it.... Unless I reach
higher I cannot resolve this doubt" -- a better vision, from a height, will
help.
Doubts are not resolved if you
remain clinging to the same space where you are, because those doubts are
created by THAT state of mind. If you remain clinging to that state, the doubts
will persist; they will become stronger every day.
Doubts are not resolved by somebody
else answering you. These are not philosophical doubts -- these are existential
doubts. They are resolved only by experiencing. When you move a little higher,
they disappear. You have reached to another state of mind. In that state of mind
they cannot exist. Suddenly they disappear, as if they have never been there.
In spite of the doubt, one has to
go on moving. In fact, one has to use the doubt as a goading to move. Listen to
the doubt and say to the doubt, "Okay, I will remember you, but the only
way to solve you is that I should go a little higher in my consciousness. I
should become a little more alert. It is my unalertness that is creating you. It
is my unconsciousness that is creating you, that is feeding you, nourishing you.
It is my state of mechanicalness that is the cause of it."
If you try to solve your doubts
where you are, you can gather many many answers from many many sources. They
will make you knowledgeable, but not really -- they will fill you with
information. But the doubt will remain somewhere. On the surface, you may start
pretending that you know, but you will know that you don't know. And it will
gnaw at your heart.
You can learn the answers, you can
start telling those answers to others, but your very existence, your very
life-style, will show that you don't know.
That is the difference between the
Western and the Eastern philosophies. They should not be called by the same
name, because their approaches are so basically different, so fundamentally
different, so diametrically opposite.
The Western philosopher thinks, but
never changes his state of awareness. He thinks where he is. He thinks hard, he
thinks VERY logically. He tries in every way to solve the problem, and he finds
many solutions. But those solutions don't help his life. If they don't even help
HIS life, how can they help somebody else's life?
For example: the English thinker
and philosopher, David Hume, arrived at the same conclusion as Gautam Buddha,
exactly the same. Had he been in the East he would have become a Buddha, but
unfortunately he was in the West, in the very thick of the Western noesphere.
He arrived at the same conclusion,
not by changing his consciousness, but only by logical argumentation. Buddha
became enlightened, Hume remained unenlightened. Buddha arrived at a state of
bliss; Hume remained crawling on the earth in the same way as of old. Buddha
created a new tradition which has remained alive even today; twenty-five
centuries have passed. Many people have bloomed because of Buddha.
What did Hume create? Hume also
created great argumentation, and even today books are written on Hume, and the
argument continues. But it is only argumentation; not a single human being has
been transformed by it.
And the irony is that the
conclusion is EXACTLY the same. Buddha came to see that there is no self; that
was HIS realization. He meditated. He went deeper and deeper into his being. He
searched inside, each nook and corner, and he didn't find anybody there. That
was his release. The ego disappeared, and with the ego all its miseries and
hells.
The ego was not found, so all the
problems that were created by the ego evaporated. When the source evaporated,
all the by-products evaporated of their own accord. When the ego was not found,
there was silence -- and that silence is beatitude, and that silence is
benediction.
When the ego was not found, there
was all light, radiant. The whole existence flowed in. Buddha became a void
capable of containing the whole existence. He himself became transformed . And
thousands of other people became transformed from his insight. Remember, it was
an insight.
What happened to David Hume? He
also came to the same point, but it was not an insight -- it was an outlook.
Remember these two words. Literally they are significant: insight, outlook. He
arrived at the same conclusion, AS an outlook. He discussed, argued, pondered,
thought, contemplated, concentrated -- did everything on the problem, but never
went in.
And he came to the point, exactly
the same, at least in appearance the same, that there is no self. The self
cannot exist. But it was not a great revolution in his life; it was just a
beautiful conclusion in his treatise. But he remained the same man! Before the
conclusion and after the conclusion there was NOT a bit of difference in the
man. He continued to behave in the same way.
If you had insulted him he would
have become angry, but not Buddha. That is the difference. He would have become
angry, although he says there is no self. He would have forgotten all his
philosophy. That philosophy was not his insight. He would have said, "That
is philosophy -- that is aside. But when you insult me, I am insulted. And I am
going to take revenge. You have to be answered!"
When Buddha was insulted, he
smiled. He said, "You came a little late. You should have come ten years
before, then I WAS there, very much. Had you insulted me ten years before, I
would have reacted madly. You come a little late. I feel sorry for you, because
now there is NOBODY to react. I hear what you are saying, but it simply passes
through me. It comes in through one ear and it goes out through the other ear.
There is nobody inside to catch hold of it. I am sorry. I feel compassion for
you."
This is the difference between the
Eastern and the Western approaches. Western philosophy is rightly called
philosophy -- love of knowledge, love of wisdom. For Eastern philosophy, Hesse
has coined a word which I like. He has coined a new word; he calls it PHILOSIA
-- it means love of seeing. SIA means to see. That is exactly the translation of
the Eastern term for philosophy, DARSHAN -- to see. It is philosia -- it is
insight, it is seeing in.
Western philosophy is a search for
knowledge, and Eastern philosophy or philosia is a search for KNOWING. Knowledge
looks out; knowing looks in. Knowledge gathers information; knowing does not
gather anything -- it simply goes in to see who is there. "Who am I?"
Its inquiry is not objective, its inquiry is subjective.
Kavita, doubts will persist. They
leave you only on the last rung, never before. Use them creatively. Each doubt
has to be transformed into a goading. The doubt simply says you have to go a
little further, a little ahead, a little higher. The doubt says, "I do not
feel satisfied -- whatsoever you have now is not satisfactory. You have to go a
little deeper."
Don't be stopped by the doubt; that
is not the function of the doubt. And don't start arguing, and don't start
thinking, because by thinking you will become a David Hume, you will remain the
same person.
My effort here is to create
Buddhas. And unless you become a Buddha, doubts will continue. You can solve one
doubt, it will assert itself from another corner. It is the same doubt in a new
shape, a new form. You repress it here, it pops up there. You will go mad. No
need. Take note of the doubt, thank the doubt, and say, "Okay, so I will go
a little further so you can be solved."
It is like this:
A man was sitting on a tree. His
friend was sitting underneath the tree. The man on the tree was picking some
fruits, and the man underneath the tree was waiting for the fruits and
collecting whatsoever was falling. The man on the tree said, "I see a
bullock cart coming." He was high on the top of the tree; he could see far
away.
And the man underneath the tree
looked to the side where the man was pointing and he said, "I doubt -- I
don't see. There is no bullock cart. What are you talking about? Can you deceive
me? I have eyes, I am not blind. There is no bullock cart coming! "
And the man on the top said,
"Yes, it is coming!"
And they started arguing. Is the
argument going to help? Can the man on the tree convince the man who is not on
the tree that the bullock cart is coming? Howsoever clever he is in his
arguments, how can he prove to the man who cannot see the bullock cart?
What did the man do? First he
argued, tried in every way, saying, "It is coming. It is painted red. One
bullock is black one bullock is white, this and that," and everything he
described. "And the man has a beard," and all. But it was in vain.
Then he recognized the truth:
"How can he see? His vision is limited." So he called him; he said,
"You come up. You climb up the tree, and I will show you the bullock
cart."
NOW, if the man underneath the tree
says, "I will come up only if you convince me that the bullock cart is
there," then there is no way. But he climbed up the tree, and he saw the
bullock cart, and the doubt was resolved. And there was no more argumentation.
He apologized. He said; "I feel sorry. I unnecessarily argued with you. It
was not a question of argument. You had a far better vision from here."
This is what the Buddhas have been
doing down the ages. They say, "We have a far better vision from here. From
this vantage point you will be able to see what is. Come closer to us. Don't go
on arguing."
Not that Buddhas cannot argue --
they can certainly argue and they can argue better than you. But it is
pointless! They can silence you through their arguments, but they cannot
convince you. They can destroy all your arguments, but even that will not help
-- you will not be able to see the bullock cart. And the whole point is how to
see it, because only seeing is believing.
Kavita, go on climbing the tree. I
am calling you. I can see. You cannot see yet. Doubts will persist. Let those
doubts help you to climb up faster, sooner. Let it become an urgency, those
doubts, make it an urgency. Doubts in themselves are not wrong -- it all depends
on how you use them. They can become blessings .
The third question:
OSHO
Question 3
HOW IS ANXIETY RELATED TO DESIRE?
IT SEEMS EASIER TO SEE THAT ONE IS DESIRING THAN TO SEE THAT ONE IS 'ANXIETING'
-- IN FACT, THERE IS NO VERB FORM FOR ANXIETY, AT LEAST NOT IN ENGLISH. AM I
DESIRING MY ANXIETY OR ANXIETING MY DESIRE?
THE DESIRE IS NOTHING but an escape
from the state of anxiety. Desires don't create anxiety, as ordinarily is
believed. Anxiety creates desire.
Man is anxiety.
Just the other day I was telling
you: animals have no anxiety, because they don't have to become -- they are. A
dog is a dog, and a tiger is a tiger, and there is no problem! The tiger is not
trying to become a tiger. He is! He already is! There is no becoming involved.
In the world of animals there is no
anxiety. In the world of Buddhas again there is no anxiety, they have arrived,
they have become. They are SIDDHAS -- they are beings. Now there is no goal
left, no movement. The journey is complete. They have arrived home.
Hence the similarity in the eyes of
the animals and the eyes of Buddhas. The same silence! The same innocence. The
same depth. The same purity. Yet the difference is also great: animals are'
unconscious, Buddhas are conscious. Hence animals' eyes are innocent, but not
luminous. There is no anxiety, but there is no celebration Ethel. There is no
despair, but no ecstasy either. In the eyes of the Buddhas you will not find
anxiety, you will not find agony; you will not find the constant urge to be
this, to be that. The fever of becoming you will not find. But there will be a
constant overflowing ecstasy -- peaceful, blissful, a well-being.
Between these two is man: half
animal, half Buddha. And that is where anxiety exists. Anxiety is THIS tension.
A part of you wants to go back to the animals. It goes on pulling you backwards.
It says, "Come back! It was so beautiful -- where are you going?"
The other parts goes on hoping for
the future. In some indirect way you know perfectly well that to be a Buddha is
your destiny. The seed is there! And the seed goes on saying to you, "Find
the soil, right soil, and you will become a Buddha. Don't go back
Go ahead...."
This tug-of-war is anxiety. Anxiety
is one of the MOST important words to be understood, because it is not only a
word: it is the very situation man finds himself in. This is the human dilemma.
The MOST fundamental dilemma is anxiety: To be or not to be? To be this or to be
that? Where to go? Man is stuck on a crossroads, all the possibilities open. But
if you choose one, you have to choose against other possibilities -- hence the
fear. You may be choosing wrong. If you go to the right -- who knows? -- the
path going to the left may have been the right path.
And there are people, shopkeepers,
who go on calling, hawkers, who go on calling, "Come to the right! This is
the right way." "Come to the left -- THIS is the right way!"
"Come our way, this is the ONLY way!" "Follow Christianity, or
Hinduism, or Buddhism... all others are wrong. You will fall in hell."
Man is paralyzed! Standing on the
crossroads, listening to all these people, he is paralyzed. Where to go? Whom to
listen to? Whom to believe? How to be certain that you are going on the right
track? Great suspicion, great doubt, great anxiety.
And deep inside you, something is
pulling you back: "Better become an animal again. Fall into drunkenness.
Take drugs, or become a sex maniac. Or become violent -- kill people!" Why
is there so much violence in the world? The animal past goes on pulling you
back. Your humanity is only skin-deep. Any moment you can become a wolf, you can
become a tiger; you can tear the other into pieces. Any moment! Any moment you
can kill.
And not only can you kill others:
you can kill yourself too. Suicide and murder, constantly pulling you.
Destruction calling you, alluring you.
And then there are Buddhas... once
in a while you see a man and you are enchanted. He has that enchanted space in
him. He has that magic by which your future suddenly becomes your present. At
least in his presence, at least when you vibrate with him, you forget all your
animal past. You start flying like angels in the sky. Those people are also
there.
THIS is the anxiety: Where to go?
What to do? And whatsoever you do, anxiety will remain. If you become an animal,
the Buddha part will go on rebelling against it. Go and do something that your
animal part feels good doing, but your Buddha part starts creating guilt in you.
Even the greatest murderer, before he murders anybody, feels the pangs; a great
pain arises in him. His Buddha part tries to stop him, "What are you
doing?" He may listen, he may not listen -- but he will repent! For years
he will repent for what he has done. He should not have done it.
The thief, before he moves into
somebody's house, is again and again warned by the Buddha part, "Don't do
it. There is still time -- escape!" If you do it, you feel guilty. If you
don't do it, you will feel guilty. Because if you don't do it, and you leave and
you come home, then you cannot sleep, because the animal part goes on saying,
"You are a fool! So much money, and it was so easily available, and there
was nobody in the house, and the whole neighborhood was fast asleep, and there
was not a single chance of your being caught -- you are just an utter fool! Why
have you come back? There is still time -- go again!"
If you follow one part, the other
part makes you feel guilty. And vice versa. This is anxiety. And this anxiety is
very existential. It is not that somebody is suffering it and somebody is not
suffering -- no. It is existential: everybody is BORN into it. Humanity is born
into it. Human beings are born into anxiety. That is their challenge. That is
the problem they have to solve -- that is the problem they have to transcend.
Now, there are two ways to
transcend it. One is the way of the world -- you can call it desire. Desire is
the way to hide this anxiety. You rush into earning money, madly. You become so
absorbed in earning money that you forget all existential anxiety. Then there is
no point, no time to think about real problems. Then you put aside everything
and you just go into the search for money, more money. And as you get money,
more and more desire arises. This desiring for money or political power is
nothing but a cover for your anxiety.
That's why people are very much
frightened when they are left alone and nothing is there to be done. That's why
retired people become very very uneasy, uncomfortable. They die fast. It is said
-- now psychological research has proved it -- that a man who is retired is
going to die ten years earlier than he would have died if he had remained
employed. Ten years earlier? Why? Because the anxiety that he has been
repressing through his job asserts itself. He was running after money, chasing
after political power; there was no time to give to anxiety.
Now there is all the time and
nothing to do. Sitting in his armchair he does only one thing -- anxieting.
Nothing else to do! Now ALL the repressed anxieties of his whole life -- that
denied existential part takes revenge. It kills. He becomes ill, heart attacks
come, he becomes paralyzed. But there is more possibility that all this is
happening because of the psychology, not because of the body.
When a person is succeeding and his
desires are taking him farther and farther away, he remains healthy. Politicians
are almost always healthy when they are in power; when they lose power, they
suddenly become old. When a person is earning and earning and earning, he
remains healthy. When he becomes d failure, when he goes bankrupt, then
suddenly, yes, in a single night all his hair can turn white -- literally.
Desire is a way to avoid anxiety,
but only to avoid. You cannot destroy it by desiring. And desire gives you small
anxieties, remember, VERY small anxieties, which are not existential. Of course,
when you are earning money you will have a few anxieties: the market and the
share market, and things like that, and prices. And you have put so much money
-- are you going to earn out of it or are you going to lose? These small
anxieties. These are nothing compared to the real anxiety -- these are tricks to
avoid the real.
Of course, when you are ambitious
for politician power, you will have anxieties, a thousand and one. But they are
nothing! they are play-things compared to the fundamental anxiety.
You ask me: HOW IS ANXIETY RELATED
TO DESIRE?
Desire is a cover-up for anxiety.
It is a trick, a strategy. And meditation is to uncover it.
That's why people can't sit
silently even for a few minutes. Because when they sit silently, anxieties start
raising their heads. They become very much afraid. That's why people ask, even
in meditation, "What should we do? Can we chant a mantra?" Then it is
okay; then the mantra becomes your cover. Then you can repeat, "Ram, Ram,
Ram," and you can go on repeating. This repetition keeps your anxiety
repressed.
Real meditation is Zen, VIPASSANA.
Real meditation is nothing but to sit silently, doing nothing. Just doing
nothing, sitting silently, that is real meditation. There is no other technique,
no technique at all in it. No mantra has to be repeated. No prayer has to be
done, no God's name to be pronounced. You simply sit... but that is the hardest
thing to do in the world. Looks so simple!
When I say again and again:
SITTING SILENTLY,
DOING NOTHING,
AND THE SPRING COMES
AND THE GRASS GROWS BY ITSELF...
CARAVAGGIO BACCHUS
ABUNDANCE
You think it is very easy: "We
can sit and the spring will come and the grass will grow by itself." This
is the hardest and the most difficult and the most arduous thing in the world:
to sit silently, doing nothing. And this is the greatest meditation.
What is meditation? Just allowing
your existence as it is without covering it in ANY way. So the Transcendental
Meditation of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi is not meditation at all. It is neither
meditation nor transcendental. It is just a strategy to be fool people.
And America needs such people to be
fool them. America needs something to cover its anxiety. Because money is there
now, so money, and the search for money, cannot become a cover-up for long now.
Society is affluent. People have all that you can desire. Now what? Now the
anxiety is knocking on the doors, and the anxiety is saying, "Okay, now you
have a two-car garage -- now what? Let me come in! Now you have a house in the
hills, another house on the beach, a beautiful yacht, what else?... now let me
come in! You were telling me, 'Wait! First let me have a house in the hills,
another house on the beach. First let me purchase a beautiful yacht.' Now you
have all that -- now let me come in. I can't wait any more!"
Anxiety is knocking on the American
door. It always knocks when a society is rich. When a society is poor,
Transcendental Meditation is not needed. That's why in India NOBODY bothers
about Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. Who bothers? People have so many ways to cover up
their anxiety so easily.
But when all the desires are coming
to a completion, what to do? Something new is needed. Then in many directions
new doors have to be opened: Go to the moon! One company is selling tickets for
the moon. Of course, it has to be a Japanese company -- '85, It January. People
are purchasing. It is already booked. Tickets are being sold on the black
market.
"What to do? Let us go to the
moon! At least we can cover up with that. We have to go to the moon. We can say
to the anxiety, 'Wait! First let me go to the moon, then I will look at you.
Wait a little more.'" Or do Transcendental Meditation. Any foolish word,
repeat it, call it a mantra. Go on repeating it. That becomes a blanket cover.
REAL meditation is not a technique.
Real meditation is just relaxing, sitting silently, letting it happen,
whatsoever it is. Allowing the whole anxiety to come up, to surface. And
watching it, watching it. And doing nothing to change it. Witnessing it is real
meditation.
In that witnessing your Buddhahood
will become more and more powerful. Witnessing is the nourishment for your
Buddhahood. And the more powerful your Buddhahood is, the less anxiety there is.
The day your Buddhahood is complete, all anxiety is gone.
HOW IS ANXIETY RELATED TO DESIRE?
IT SEEMS EASIER TO SEE THAT ONE IS DESIRING THAN TO SEE THAT ONE IS 'ANXIETING'.
YES, IT IS EASIER TO SEE THAT ONE
IS DESIRING because this is what you are doing. Anxiety is not something that
you are doing: you are born in it. It has nothing to do with YOUR doing. You are
BORN anxiety! That's why it is difficult to see -- one reason.
And the second reason: you don't
WANT to look at it. It is scary. One feels that one will go mad. It is better to
avoid it, to keep it at the back, never to encounter it.
It happens every day.
One very beautiful man took sannyas
a few months ago. He has been a con man. The moment I looked into his eyes he
became afraid of me. I said, "What kind of con man are you? Now I am going
to con you." I gave him a few groups -- he escaped without those groups. He
became so frightened! For months nothing was heard about him.
Then he sent his lawyer to watch
here -- a con man is a con man -- to find out "What is really happening
here? Is it okay to get into things?" The lawyer came here. He watched. He
must have reported that "There is nothing to fear, you can go." He
gathered courage and came back.
And I told him, "You are a
coward. What kind of con man have you been? And this time don't try to
escape." And I gave him a few groups again -- and he disappeared!
Now I have received a letter from
Singapore. He says, "Osho, I am reading your books here and listening to
your tapes, but I became so much afraid because you have given me these groups
again -- and I will have to expose ALL the rubbish that I am carrying within
myself. I will have to expose my whole being. I will have to be nude and true
and authentic, and that frightens me. But I will come... I am reading, I am
listening, I am gathering courage again, and I will come."
It happens to many people: I give
them groups; one day, two days, and they escape from the group. It becomes too
much. What fear arises? The fear of exposure. Not that they will be exposed to
others: the fear basically is that "I will be exposed to myself," that
"I will have to see what I have been hiding all along." And once you
have known it, it will be impossible to hide it again.
That's why before I tell you to
meditate, I send you into Primal Therapy, into Encounter -- I send you into
different groups. So that, the first thing: your cover is taken away; you are
left naked, spiritually naked. Then meditation becomes easier, because
meditation is nothing but to be with yourself in your totality.
Yes, I understand, to see desire is
easy:
IT SEEMS EASIER TO SEE THAT ONE IS
DESIRING THAN TO SEE THAT ONE IS 'ANXIETING'.
To see that one is anxieting NEEDS
GUTS. It is really only for those who have courage.
IN FACT, THERE IS NO VERB FORM FOR
ANXIETY, AT LEAST NOT IN ENGLISH.
Our languages are as false as we
are. Our languages are made by us. They reflect us. In fact, a real language
will not have any nouns, will have only verbs. If it has to be true to life, it
can only have verbs, not nouns.
When you say, "This is a
tree," you are falsifying, because there is NO static tree anywhere. A tree
is a treeing. It is growing, it is constantly moving! A new leaf has come up,
and the old leaf has fallen. A new bud is opening. When you are saying,
"This is a tree," it is no more the same tree. Your statement is
already out of date. This is ANOTHER tree!
When you say, "This is a
river," what do you mean? River is a riveting; it is constantly flowing.
And so is a man and so is a woman. All are processes, dynamic. Everything in
existence is a verb. But our languages are as false as we are. They have to be
-- they are our languages.
It is no wonder that Buddhas always
feel it difficult to say the truth to you -- because they have to use your
language, and your language is so against truth. Why do we use so many nouns
when no noun is true? Life is not life but living, and love is not love but
loving, and death is not death but dying. Why do we use nouns at all? It gives
us a feeling of control. Nouns can be controlled; verbs cannot be controlled.
Verbs are beyond you. Nouns are static, dead, you can manipulate them. Verbs are
alive. They will slip out of your fingers; you carrot hold them in your hands.
Loving has to be transformed into
love -- then it is easy to tackle. If a man says to a woman, "I am in a
state of loving towards you," just see how much difference it makes. And
then he says, "I love you." When he says, "I love you," he
is saying something static. Implied in it is that, "Tomorrow also I will
love." It is a static phenomenon: "I LOVE YOU." It is definite,
it is absolute. There is not going to be any change in it.
But if a man says, "I am in a
state of loving," you will be afraid, because 'state of loving'? -- it is a
process. Morning it may be there, evening it may be gone. Then what?
And when somebody says, "I
love you," the noun is addressed to you. When somebody says, "I am in
a state of loving," it is not addressed to you. He may be loving to
somebody else too! It is dangerous. You cannot possess it.
Nouns can be possessed, hoarded.
You can become masters. But verbs cannot be possessed. They go on and on... they
go beyond you; they go beyond all your comprehension. They remain unpredictable.
Nouns are predictable. Verbs are unpredictable. They are like a cloud changing
its form every moment.
You cannot depend on a cloud's
form. There may be an elephant in the cloud -- it looks like an elephant. By the
time you call your child, "Come here! Come out! There is an elephant in the
sky!" and by the time the child comes, it is no more an elephant. The
elephant has dissolved. The cloud is not a fixed phenomenon. Now what to say to
the child? He will say, "You have been lying. Where is the elephant?"
In fact, there was no elephant --
the moving cloud was just elephantine. Sometimes it is horsing... it is
unpredictable. And we are very much afraid of the unpredictable. And life is
unpredictable, so we go on keeping ourselves surrounded by nouns. It feels safe.
Our languages reflect our minds,
our ignorance, our unconsciousness, our stupidities, our jealousies, our fears,
our obsessions, our neurosis. Our language represents ALL that we are. It is a
reflection of our mind -- it is a mind product.
That's why there is nothing like
'anxieting'. 'Anxiety' -- then it is fixed. Then you can label it: This is
anxiety. You can label: This is love. But if you watch real love, it changes
sometimes into hate -- REAL love changes into hate. Now it will confuse you, so
you label differently: This is hate -- this is love. And you bypass the link.
You never look into the link. Love becomes hate: hate becomes love. Friends turn
into enemies: enemies turn into friends. Everything is moving into everything
else! It is all one! Things are not divided by water-tight compartments.
The earth becomes the tree... the
tree becomes the air... it goes on melting into each other... the air is
breathed by you... it becomes your blood... everything is moving into everything
else. Nothing is unrelated. It is all ONE process.
When you stop manipulating life,
when you sit silently and simply watch, you will see all this tremendous beauty,
this tremendous unpredictable process of life, this dynamism.
AND this is God! This wholeness.
This interdependence. This inter linked existence, where everything is changing
into everything else. This fluid energy is God.....
The last question:
Question 4
OSHO, DO YOU EVER GET BORED? WHY
NOT DROP THE ASHRAM AND LIVE IN THE FOREST?
VEETGYAN, WHAT ARE YOU talking
about? What ashram? I am living in the forest! These people are my trees --
orange trees, aflame with flowers. Can you find a more wild jungle than this?
And how can I be bored with so many
beautiful people around me? with such a celebrating existence? If you feel
bored, that simply shows you must be insensitive, you must be thick. Your skull
has to be broken. Otherwise, where can you find a better existence than this?
This is the only existence there is, AND the perfect one. All is as it should
be. Trees are green, and roses are red. All is as it should be! How can you get
bored?
Boredom comes out of insensitivity.
Because you are insensitive you cannot see the subtle changes that go on
happening around you. Hence it looks repetitive: "The sun rises every
morning, the same sun -- how can one remain without being bored?" But it is
NOT the same sun! It is constantly changing. It is FIRE -- how can the fire
remain the same? Watch fire... it is constantly changing. Flames are changing.
It is constant flux. Sun is a liquid fire. It is never the same.
But, thinking that it is the same,
you don't look at the morning, and the clouds are new every day. Their forms are
new. They take new colors. Every day they celebrate the coming of the sun. And
the birds and the trees and the whole existence every moment is new, AND fresh
-- as fresh as a dewdrop in the morning. And so are people!
But you are dull, you are
insensitive. You think it is the same woman you have lived with for twenty
years. You have stopped looking at her. You have not looked at her for MANY
years, not into her eyes. You have not touched her. You have forgotten her body
smell. Then it is boring; then it is the same woman again and again.
It is NOT really boring -- it is
just that your eyes have collected much dust. Life becomes boring the more dust
you collect in your eyes. The life becomes just formal, a ritual, empty. You go
on doing things. Slowly slowly, all your acts become mechanical, robot like.
Then life is boredom.
But I have never seen two moments
alike. Each moment has its own beauty. Each moment is Only for once. If you miss
it, you miss it forever; it will not be repeated again. God is not repetitive.
God is very original -- he never sings the same song again.
If you hear the same song again,
then something must be wrong with you.
It happened:
A woman was singing, it was her
birthday. She sang late in the night. Her voice was just horrible, but the
neighbors were somehow tolerating it because it was only once in a year that her
birthday used to come. So they had become tolerant about it. But that night she
continued and continued... it was getting really late, two o'clock in the night.
And a man just in front of her house could not sleep; tried in every way --
tried all the tricks. Tossed and turned and did TM... etc., but nothing helped.
She was driving him crazy, so he opened his window and shouted at her,
"Lady, now it is time. You stop! otherwise I will go mad."
The woman opened her door and said,
"What are you talking about? It is almost one hour since I stopped!"
But what happened to this man? He
was already mad. One hour before she had stopped, but he was listening,
listening, listening... it was something in HIS mind. It was his inner
gramophone.
Just watch: when you see a rose
flower, your inner gramophone says, "You have seen it before. It is the
same rose flower, nothing special about it. I have seen better." You look
at the moon and the inner gramophone says, "So what?! This is the same
moon, and we have seen it many times."
There are millions of people who
never look at the sky. If suddenly one night all the stars disappear, they will
not become aware of it. It may take a few days for them; when the news comes in
the newspapers that "All the stars have simply disappeared from the
world," then they will look at the sky. And then they will miss them, and
they will make much fuss and they will say, "How unfortunate! And we had
not seen the stars for many years and they were here."
You are bored because of your inner
gramophone. I have none in site me. Each person is fresh, each moment is fresh.
They are not repetitions -- they are all unique. And I remain thrilled, I remain
ecstatic.
Your life, Veetgyan, must have
become an empty ritual. You must be moving through things, dragging. Not even
under-standing the meaning, why you are doing these things. You come home and
you kiss your wife -- you have to, but there is no kiss, there is no kissing,
there is no ecstasy in it. Just a dull phenomenon. And if you feel tired and
bored, I can understand.
Life, slowly slowly, becomes so
mechanical that it loses ALL meaning. All meaning oozes out of it. Then it is
just a dull ritual. To live this way is to live irreligiously. That's my
definition of religion: to live joyously, ecstatically, thrilled by each moment
that knocks on your door, is to live religiously.
Religion is nothing but the Al
chemical process in which all your insensitivity dissolves, and you become
utterly sensitive, delicate, vulnerable. Then each moment is samadhi, is God. is
enlightenment.
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